The Black Petals ( Kinnporsche Fan fiction)

Chapter-2

❝𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐬, 𝐧𝐨 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐬
𝐑𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲'𝐫𝐞
𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞
𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐡𝐨𝐰
𝐛𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞? ❞

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Countless Black petals left his lung every day, he needed to sweep his room almost all the time to throw them away, everywhere there were flower petals

No matter how many cigarette packs he smoked, they didn't die. He barely remembered when it had started but it must have been in childhood, he spent sleepless nights spitting and coughing dozens of black petals

he knew what it meant and it made him sad, even though he knew he had a reason not to be reciprocated

The petals were of "Black roses" . Black roses symbolize ideas such as hatred, despair, death

Who could hate thim this much? he can't help but wonder. Are they those people families whom he killed in war, are they one of these old flings? but why will their hate affect him?

None of the option suits the answer

Oh but there's one which will ...

His Brothers

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Kinn Pov

Here we are again having an awkward Family dinner. Vegas and Pete are in their own world . Macau face looks like he just wanna run away from here and never come back

My eyes went to Kim,  he is calm as always. His eyes are soft as i saw him staring at Porchay who's talking to Porsche happily. Porsche is feeding him lunch like he is a 7 years kid and then there's chay who's protesting yet enjoying the attention

To My Surprise, Tankhun didn't create any drama yet. He is bickering with pete and his bodyguards. In between having some talk with Kim

Am i invisible for them?

I can't help but ask myself

I felt that bitter feeling again in my chest.
Sometimes i envy porsche,i wish we could like be like him and chay.

But brushing that thought away, i tried engaging my brother in a friendly talk . However got ignored.

They still didn't forgave me, Guilt again consume me making me feel sick. I don't even know how Porsche forgave me

I still remember his words:

"It doesn't make you a terrible person to make mistakes, kinn. We all make them. What makes you a bad person is if you choose to ignore the consequences and stay stagnant as a person. You grow from mistakes, bloom from the hurt, make something out of the tears."

If forgiving isn't that hard, then why are they still holding a grudge against me?

I felt an itch in my throat, a sharp feeling in my chest as if there was a thorn, prickling my whole body, not allowing me to breathe, wrapping itself as it crept itself around my throat.

The itch was unbearable, I tried to ask for water but the only thing that came out of my mouth were just harsh dry coughs. I saw everyone attention on me, again making me feel sick

Kim gave me an unimpressed look and again looked away making my eyes teary

"Kinn, are you okay?" , A worried Porsche ask me as he gave me glass of water and kept rubbing my back, I relished the feeling of the cool water rushing down my throat.

However, the moment of bliss ended momentarily as I continued to choke on seemingly nothing, stinging coughs rising with such urgency. I coughed roughly, heavily into my fist.

There i saw, those black petals again. Before anyone could see, i closed my fist ignoring everyone yelling, i ran to the closest bathroom.

As i was done throwing up the flowers, tears ran down my cheeks. I leaned against the bathroom wall staring at the wall. I thought it was Porsche but i was very wrong as i remember yesterday night conversation

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"i don't think i deserve Porsche", Kinn whisper lightly to chay who was standing beside him in balcony

"Don't ever say that. A relationship is not built on what someone deserves. If it was, there would never be an honest love in this world. He chose you, and you chose him, and that is what matters most."

"aren't you mad at me",?

" Trust me i was, but i and Porsche are mature enough to choose what's right for us Khun Kinn. If My Brother love for you was fading, then why would he risk his life for you. He can still threw Minor. family responsibilities and run away from here. But he choose you ",

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