T H E I R D A R K E S T L I G H T
She hated the Dark since she was a baby, she would cry and cry until someone holds her in their arms and open the lights only one could do that.
Amerea Jacob lived with her abusive mother and stepfather for most o...
"I HATE YOU! I HATE ALL OF YOU!" I shouted angrily. "I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE! I WANT TO LEAVE!" I again shouted.
Sadness and hurt passes through there eyes as those words came out of my mouth.
"I WISH I NEVER MET ANY OF YOU! I WISH YOU NEVER CAME IN MY LIFE! I WISH I JUST DIED THAT DAY! I WILL FOREVER HATE YOU! YOU ALREADY LOST ME THAT DAY YOU LET ME GET TAKEN BY THAT MAN, THAT MAN WHO TORTURED ME! What should I expect? You're the strongest mafia but you couldn't even protect someone in your family." I gave them a look of disgust.
I could see sadness, anger in their eyes. Yes. Please, hate me. Hate me to the point that you'll kick me out, that you'll disown me.
"Amellia! How could you say that?!" Ao cried.
I looked at him coldly, and fuck, seeing him so hurt like this broke my heart. But no I shouldn't. I need to do this.
"Because that's the truth. I never trusted any of you, I just fooled you, all of those are acts. Even when I was scared of the dark, that was an Act. I'm not scared, you disgusting people scare me more than the dark." I struggled not to stutter.
I could how hurt they are when I said that.
"You think of us as Disgusting?" Dad asked.
I did my best to keep my cool. I wanted to say No, never, I would never think of you as disgusting. I love you, but no I can't. I need you to hate me, to disown me.
"Yes." I said in a cold tone.
"Then why did you stay?" Asked Alec in his cold tone which he never used on me.
"For the money, the show, to help them pull you down. I hate you, I loathe you." I looked him in the eye fighting the coldness of those eyes that are Identical to mine.
"And now I'm done with this show. I already got what I need." I turned my back and pulled myself together to leave.
Before I could even take a step a hand stopped me.
"Sit down." His cold voice echoed throughout the room.
"What? No. I'm leaving, let me go." I said stubbornly.
What the hell? You're supposed to hate me, Alec.
"I said Sit. Down." He commanded.
"You really think I would believe all of those? You're a great actress, you take after our cousins' talent in acting. But you would never fool me with those acts. I know you too well. You're not scared being with disgusting people like us, you're as brave as a lion, you're only scared of the dark, and only I could make you stop crying when in a dark place. Your eyes are red and puffy when we found you in that dark room, a sign that you cried until you fainted. And you hate us? Loathe us? Come on. Even if you do hate us do you really think I will just let you out of our lives? A decade Amellia, A FUCKING DECADE! We looked for you non stop, we never wanted you to get taken, even if we're the strongest mafias, even if mixed with the strongest yakuza that's nothing if our trusted family member did something. Even the strongest will fall, but they will rise again. That is why we are called the strongest. And you helping those jerks? Like I would believe that! Even if you don't trust us, if you don't love us, we're willing to work hard for that trust and love if it came from you, it's worth it. You're not leaving." Alec said sternly.
"Look at me in the eyes properly and say those words again." Alec dared me.
A dare that I would never be able to do. I can't say it and look at his eyes at the same time. Those Identical eyes of ours makes it more hard for me to look at it, it like lying not only to my brothers and father but also to my Mom.
I couldn't do it. I can't even imagine them hating me, it's just that I really wanted them to be safe, the eagerness to keep them safe is the only reason I could say that.
"We love you, Amellia. Forever, even if this world crashes into pieces." Alec said.
I felt weak, my knees trembling as I finally fell in my knees, Alec caught me, he held me in his arms making me feel safe, the love, the care, and the feeling of being with someone.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled as I cried in Alec's arms.
Alec hugged me tighter my head buried in his chest.
"Do you know how worried we are?" I heard Ao crying voice.
"I thought we did something, I thought that jerk hurt you so much for you to say those words, for you to just decide to leave." Ao said as he hugged me tight.
Then I felt others hug me, my brothers, and cousins. And... I feel safe like before.
"You really still don't get how much love we have for you. We could die, we could get cut into pieces, just be alive." Ao said.
"I'm ready to go to hell right now if that's what it takes for you to know how much we love you." Xan said.
"Fuck dying, fuck the world crushing, fuck everything. I would show you how much this fucking family loves you. How much we could do just for you." Alec said.
"There's so much more to say and do, Amellia. We will say I love you everyday, we will do everything that assures you the love and trust we have on you. Just don't leave again, please. I'm begging you." Driz said.
"If You're scared tell me, I'll be here even if it's already midnight, even if I'm in a far away place." Gio said.
These comforting words, fuck. What am I doing? I'm just too dumb for this family, they could help me, they will help me. I was too scared.
"Watashi no imōto, always remember that even if this family looks scary as fuck, even if we are as heartless and ruthless like others told, we all are too soft for you. That's how our love works for you, You're our princess, our sunshine, the one who gave us light is this dark world. I'm sorry if we didn't noticed how hard You're taking things by Yourself. I'm sorry if we couldn't find you immediately, I'm sorry that because we believed You're the light of this family we forgot to be the light that is supposed to be guiding you to the right path, I'm sorry that we didn't notice how dark out light is that we almost let you die out of light." Toshiro said as he held my face using both of his hands, his thumb wiping my tears.
The pain, I thought I was in the most pain in this family, I was beaten to death, I was kept in a room to starve, I was almost raped. I didn't notice how hard it is also for them when they lost me. We all are in Pain, but I was so selfish. I thought that if I leave, they'll be safe and happy. I was wrong, I was putting them in more Pain.
"Always remember how much we love you, Bambina." Alec kissed my forehead.
I couldn't stop crying. I'm now in my Father's arms crying like a baby.
"I was so scared that You all will get hurt. I'm sorry." I cried.
"It's fine, it's fine." Dad caressed my back.
"Hush now, Nipote" Uncle Angelo said taking me from my father's arms.
[Nipote - Niece/Nephew.]
This is my family, I don't what has gotten into me that I tried to ruin it, but fuck that Guy. He'll surely pay for it.
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Two updates, why? 'Cause it took me five days to update a new Chapter.
