Fotografik Memori Lepas

!2!

You know, aq tak pernah faham konsep adik-abang angkat culture yang entah sapa dia start. Even now pun aku still tak faham and quite frankly, aku taknak faham pun in the first place. Probably it had to do with aku being adik bongsu dalam keluarga aku and i'll tell ya, with 4 bros at home is enough aku judge kriteria of at least how average 'abang' looks like. At least , based on expirience aku la, y'all would have nice one dari aku, im sure, hopefully..

That being said , this adik-abang angkat is one thing. Seniority and superiority on others hand, now that is pure bs (bu*lsh*t). I mean oke, I live in malaysia, as muslim where di-educated untuk menghormati orang lebih tua dari kitew and all that, but i feel kalau you as senior duk flaunt "aku ni senior , mu kena respect aku budok" or "mu ingat mu biso doh hah, mu kecik lagi natey hormat sikit" , i feel like there should be silent rule where your 'seniority' should be revoked there, on the spot. Personally, kalau ko tanya aku la, respect must be earned. That and also that said of senior kena ada characteristics yang....umm, well ko tahu at least something atau anything yang us junior (yes us, ni monolog aku masa form 1 dulu eheh) boleh look upon to. And it could be anything really but kengkadang it depends on junior personal issue, as much anyone find it doesn't matter [unfortunately :( ] , boleh affect diorang punya judgement to that senior. Yes , imagine judging person in 2014, pfft.

Anyway, when the first time aktiviti asrama (namely 'BADAR' to which be further explained chapter ahead) assigned aku abang angkat during form 1 , especially during aku punya homesick era , ko boleh imagine how aku tak berapa enthusiastic masa tu. Like really eughhhhhhhhhhh. To make matter worse, this dude who 'supposedly' to be abang angkat aku just really..... nak kata tak suka aku tu macam streching sangat. I think dia pun share the same mood dengan aku probably. He nice tho, really dia rather buat something else daripada participate in this bs (his word not mine, what a honest guy XD hahaha). And sebab of that after that night, unlike few member aku , both of us jarang jumpa or rather never hang out at all. Like really, who would of thought assigning abang angkat from Form 5 would be a great idea at all? Those form 5 who, cekik darah with spm mase tu, and only got 1 year less kat smk tu (if diorang tak sambung form 6 kat situ la that is). Either way, the feeling mutual me and him to a lil sad on my side sebab i wish there *is* some senior who aku boleh personally consult and help aku adapt kat smk mase form 1 time tu, sebab let be honest, i can't do anything alone , i am suck at that.

But, fate works kind of funny sebab later on, this one senior who entah muncul dari celah mane entah decided untuk adopted aku as new bully material (affectionately kate dye uwerrkkk). He is form 4 mase tu, batch yang consist with good- like really angel sent from heaven people and half of them people yang 'I wish them well IN HELL' people (dont ask, really). Anyway this dude fakely name Kid decide to approach me during night activity kat masjid asrama smk malam tu as aku duduk sengsorang and ask nama aku out of nowhere while suruh aku duduk sekali dengan few groups friends of him. Of course being form 1 junior mase tu ko mesti rasa cuak thinking kalau ko dah 'ter'-buat masalah sampai kena panggil senior mase tu so bayangkanlah feeling aku mase tu, but not this time as dia fikir its funny to tease me mase tu. Nothing bad tho, dia just joking how nama aku hampir sama nama dia which annoyed him (i repeat jokingly of course) albeit ejaan lain, and also buat aku guessing name some member2. To which.... also give the fake name/panggilan yang aku ingat tu nama sebenar diorang. Lancau punye senior hahaha. Looking back at now, its stupid really to think out of all junior dia boleh choose , dia pilih aku as mainly and seriously at least (?) speaking sebab nama aku dengan dia hampir sama, i mean we had another one member aku "**if" , but idk maybe aku jarang nampak dia interact with other junior. Its not helped that he just nice guy like that at one point aku macam wish we hang out more (and we did, unexpectedly la) but aku taknak depend dia sangat. 

I wish more senior like him, maybe i would grow be like him? entoh, who knoww~

-part 1 end- 

Ewwo, aku tried update like sekali seminggu but really its depend on memori aku (like title said duh). Aku nak keep it concise and accurate so yeah, hope anyone related as well. Buhbye for now \o/   -aq_novella