There's an uneasy feeling you get when you have to endure painful hours of your best friend screaming homophobic insults at people around you. Knowing that he's completely and utterly oblivious of the awkward shuffling and pained expressions coming from you. Though after a while you tend to get over it. well , try seams more fitting. You look for an alternative, in my case my goggles helped me for more than concealing my bags, but my emotion as well.
I try so hard to keep it a secret, but I cant help but feel that Mello is starting to notice. Cant help but feel that he's doubting my sexuality. It wouldn't surprise me in the slightest. he is a genius after all. There are days where I want to flat out tell him. But on those days I remember how he insulted L when he came out.
Mello's hatred fuelled voice screaming things along the lines of "not normal!" and " sick in the head " enter my mind and I cant help but wince. the thought of his hatred directed at me made me brake a little inside. Because no matter how much I wanted to admit it, I knew that would be the case.
The worst part of keeping this secret is that the one I fantasize about is him !
Do you know how hard it is to keep my eyes of him, or not blush when I see him half naked ? It tears my apart. Literally. I have a secret notebook with all my thoughts and feelings written down and I suppose that helps the stress to some extent. But it never seems to be enough. I know I'm heading for a broken heart but if you took one look at Mello, would you really blame me ? No? Thought not. Because, you don't have to be gay , or straight, to see the perfect soul that is Mello. To see his true beauty.
Because Mello is perfect, stunning, sexy... And you'd have to be blind to not see that.
No one can judge me for loving him. Only Mello. And i'll punch you into the next world if you dare try.
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Yo Tempter here! Hope you enjoyed this. I'm working on the next chapter i'll be nice and give you a hint. its called " secrets unleashed " and its in Mello's pov.
c ya then !
Tempter Moon
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Some things can't stay hidden ( Matt x Mello )
RomanceMello's known to be homophobic, his best friend Matt is in the closet. How will Mello react when he finds out ?
