Some things can't stay hidden ( Matt x Mello )

Living In Denial

Mello's Pov 

Holy shit, no! this is not happening! why would i kiss him ? hadn't i just verbally abused him for being gay ? I'm such a hypocrite its unreal . Not only that but i liked it! i fucking liked it! I couldn't keep that to my self either i just had to go and blurt it out. Now Matt knows and here i am having an all out panic attack in front of him. Great!

" M-Mell, ... There is absolutely nothing wrong with liking a kiss! That's all it is , a kiss. Whats wrong is thinking something is wrong with you for liking it!" Matt says, the gleam in his eyes makes my heart pound and my desire to kiss him increase. Wait what did i just think? DO NOT go gay on me now!  Not after the way you treated Matt! 

" There is something wrong! I'm a boy, your a boy! doesn't it effect you ? " i semi-shout. i know that specific fact wont bother him but i want him to tell me openly instead of me reading that notebook.

" Mello , remember what you where screaming at me an hour ago for ? I'm gay! " matt exclaims as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Well at least he confirmed it. i smiled lightly and moved to wrap my arms around him. This was it. My hey Matt your gay, and thats okay! I dont know why but matt always makes my opinions on certain things change, i guess i never noticed before , but I... always want to feel noticed by him. I wonder why.

 ' you like him, idiot!'

No i do not!

' oh look at his butt, isn't it so fuckable and most probably tight and could be all yours'

well it is quite sexy- wait you tricked me!

' No. You tricked you heh heh.'

okay maybe your right. I'll just, um.. maybe kiss him once more to see if it does anything. But not right now. i want to enjoy this time we have together without any awkwardness. 

                                                                                  *****ONE WEEK LATER*****

Today is the day that im going to kiss matt. Ever since that day last week i've been feeling weird around him! like blushing when our hands touch , to wanting to kiss him whenever he smiles whether its in a crouded room or not. Matt is currantly playing his DS next to me , but i can tell from the constant glances he keeps giving me that he's not really paying attention.

" Mello, if you want to say something just say it." he tells me, finally switching of his DS to focus his attention on whatever i have to say.

" Alright, " here goes nothing. " Can i kiss you ?"