Texas Dirt

chapter 11

Lance invited me over at there house for some celebrating thing, it's so important he told me to bring my family...

"Okay guys I've invited you all here because I got my scholarship to play college football at Michigan State" He smiled with happiness, his smile reached his ears his happiness makes me happy- it does but I got accepted to go to Notre Dame ....

"I got accepted to Notre Dame" I broke out

"Oh congrats hun" Lance's mom congratulated me

After dinner Lance came up to me giving me sentences about how long distance is gonna work but I don't think so- no.

"Lance we're graduating in three days, and I'm leaving on the morning after grad we don't have time" I disagreed with him

"Come on please Ken I beg you. Try this out for me please?" He begged and begged

I shook my head "Talk to me when you think my past relationships with long distance works"

I walked away, I know it was a little too early he was feeling happy and now I feel so bad for making him feel sad and hopeless but we can fix this. We always do.

I fiddled with my laptop and looked through my life bucket list and one of them was to get accepted to notre dame and all I had to do was give it a check and I did. I don't want to leave notre dame and join Lance at Michigan and not be happy and I also don't want Lance to screw Michigan and come to Notre Dame with me and as nice as that sounds but our dreams are far apart from each other maybe we can come back to each other if it's true love. I GOT IT! MY VALEDICTORIAN SPEECH ENDING!! This is going great, well not me but my speech is, in front of thousands of people I'll be saying a speech at freshman year I was careless and Sophomore year I cleaned it up a little with no more D's, Junior year no more C's and senior year all I got were A's! This is amazing I'm going to go into the so called "real world" But really I am in the real world it just gets hard and harder every day- AND THERE'S ANOTHER PART FOR MY SPEECH!

As much as I'd love to finish this I'd also love to have my boyfriend tell me he loves me because he knows I've been having a hard time with the last few days of senior year, I have to create a cheer routine for the farewell rally and two more cheer routines for the next years try outs and I'll have to be there to judge as well along with the six judges who will be sitting beside me.

Lance noted me about a party he's throwing for getting into Michigan state, I didn't bother going I had my own party to attend - a party of drinking alone while writing my valedictorian speech and moping at how miserable I'll feel without Lance in my life and then cleaning my room clean, packing every little thing away in a box. Ireland sounds nice it does and I've seen it all and I really want to go there so badly but without Lance is heart breaking for me and yes we are still dating but I can't grieve early?

Lance typically has been the best part of my junior and senior year, he made Texas better than before two years being with "Lance the most charming and loved quarterback football player"
Days fly by so fast it feels like yesterday was Junior year when I despised Lance so much I jumped off a window to avoid him. I wish there was a rewind button in life so I can replay all the good memories I've had with him and the gang I can't believe we're all separating like this, me moving the farthest to Ohio, it's all about sacrifice- sacrifice ?

Maybe that's what we need to do, sacrifice our love and just trust each other with the long distance relationship and I know it's gonna be hard trusting someone you won't be seeing in person from miles away but if you love him enough you'll trust him and you'll work the long distance relationship thing out and if we ever break up we'll come back to each other if we were so called meant to be, It's all about sacrifice.

A/N

I apologize for taking a really really long time on making this 11th chapter and I also apologize it was short, it was purposely made short for the next chapter!! Hope you'll give it a star/like