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Hurting

Saturday...
Cassy's point of view....

How could this happen? I don't understand! Why? This can't be true! I can't stop crying it hurt so much.
Dad: Pumpkin, are you alright?
Cassy: No!
Dad: Do you want to talk about it?
Cassy: Why dad? Why did this happen to her?
Dad: I know it's confusing, but something good will come out of it.
Cassy: How could anything good come from this?
Dad: Remember when your mom died and of course then we didn't think anything good could come out of it, but then we met Maria and Becca.

Becca is my dads girlfriend and Maria was our Nanny for 6 years after our mom died.
Cassy: Well you've been dating Becca for 10 years and still aren't married! And Maria doesn't talk to uS anymore because of her baby! That is now 5!
Dad: I'll leave you alone honey.
He gave me a great big bear hug then walked off.
Dad: oh, and Jace is waiting downstairs for you.
Cassy: Ok, dad tell him I'll be down soon.
After I pulled myself together I went down to see him.

Jace: Hey
Cassy: sorry for making you wait
Jace : It's fine your little brother was just showing me his game.
Ian: My name is Ian. Here, I made this for you.
Ian, my little brother handed me a origami flower.
Cassy: Its beautiful, I'll put it on my shelf.
Cassy: Um... can you go play a video game in the basement and play a video game or watch TV?
Ian: Yeah

Jace: Are you ok?
Cassy: Why is your face messed up?
Jace: I talked to Jen's dad
I laughed cause we had told him he was going to get hurt.
Jace: Great to know my pain is amusing to you, but I am happy I got you to smile.
Cassy: I don't think I've done that all day.
I sat down and Jace put his arms around me. I couldn't keep it in anymore and I started to ball.
Jace: It ok
Cassy: No! She's gone!
Jace: I'm sure Izzy would want you to keep going on.
Then even he started to tear up.

Cassy: But how do I go on when I know she's dead?
Jace: There's nothing we could have done
Cassy: Got her doctors that wouldn't kill her
Jace: They didn't, she just didn't wake up
Cassy: I know but it's their fault
Jace: We're all sad
Cassy: But it's different for you, she was a big part of my life
Jace: I get that
Cassy: First my mom now Izzy! I want to see them

I shot up from were I was sitting and ran to the kitchen, Jace followed after. I pulled out one of the largest knifes I had. If I cut my wrist down wars and then the vane on my neck I will die. So I put the knife to my wrist first.

Jace: No! Stay here with me! I love you!
Cassy: I love you too but I also love them.
Jace: Help! Call 911 she's ganna kill herself! Help!
Before anyone could come down I pressed the knife against my skin on both wrist.
Cassy: I'll be with you soon mom and Izzy!