oh it's a crush

2ND

-August 4th,Friday ( I couldn't update alot.. sorry T~T)

" cause she is the cheer captain and I am in the bleachers." - you belong with me [Taylor Swift]



cr. to rightful owner.

To M,

       Today was P.E. classes but the weather was not weatherproof and was raining 🚿. I didn't had to tilt my head so much for you today. Since, from first class you were already there.
Senior, you are but.. you are dominating so much of my heart.

You never know my all talks with my BFF about you.
Anyway, I saw you laughing a bit in your own team with her. She wouldn't have been a problem, but she also want to acclaim attention from you. I fear.
That's normal spirit of her on wanting good glares from boys.

Yet, I can't judge her so deeply in words. She was once a friend to me. But, I hope and think the more that you may haven't got any secret laughs with her. Didn't you called her sister infront of me? A slight playful way of rejecting any affection, in our words?

I stay unknown to you today, I already know that I couldn't afford the legacy to compete with your eyes. So, better I admired you alot from afar.

2nd classes started.. you were gone ( ik this subject teacher is the principal.. lol ☠️). That was originally funny because the club room was just beside your class. And the completion of the decoration was processing infront of YOUR CLASS.

We got break, but haven't saw you.
3rd classes started, the subject was Science. I didn't went because I was thinking not to... Even though, it was so important. But, nice thing! He taught for 10 minutes only.
Your subject teacher didn't came and you were at the last of benches.

Mannnnnnnnn, why did you stared at me so finely????for maybe 2 min, lol. You were pressing yourself back in the wall, staring your whole pupils to me. Little, did I knew.
You weren't still mine to lose.

It was still the same subject class.. I created new hair thing for youu :)
[ 2 braided buns cuz' I thought it looked cute <3]
You actually stared, { some toxicated, polluted, close organisms didn't like it n even that toxic acid made a face full of disgust to me & not much of the gals from the class speeched that n told 'ewww' to me also, giggled at me }

Ofc, I didn't mind any of THEM. Since, some juniors and seniors found it adorable ( sweetest, them )
You probably didn't but obv you stared nicely to me.

Hellppppppp, I am an epitome of ✨delusional✨.

Then afterwards, I had my own very important classes. We had lunch break and after then, there was ⚽ match. At first, they didn't took our grade for audiences. And, either took us to 🏐 volleyball match. Nothing, interesting cause' you weren't there. My main player.

At last, defeated the teachers sent us out to ⚽ ground and then, I saw you. Stared at you but did you ?
Ig, maybe?

It wasn't even a couple of 10 minutes, you were just roaming around. And, you returned back to the school. Maybe, you didn't went hard to see me as I did?

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Afterwards, I went to have low energy or enjoyment to watch the match. Cause' literally half of the teams didn't had enough players yet went to play with forced players who were just freaked out through whole game. (× no judges, tho)

( Greatest info?! The 2 attention seekers or the 2 peoples that I feared from you were also players in the match. But, you didn't stand along eventhough their match was just after few minutes. I kinda felt happy cause if you liked any of the 2 of them, then u would've seen the match. But, YOU DIDN'T!.. peoples from Internet please send me some help.
BTW, my ex- friend also noticed that.. hehe. We were actually talking abt that and getting more delusional 😻.)

Then, I returned back quickly and cleansed up myself from the sweat. Our decor was completed, so I just went to class. I rested and met you at the assembly before home.

You didn't stared me so much, you never did out there. And you were laughing with another, attention wanting person of my very own grade. WOWWW!
excellent of you M.

But, since she is the vice persona of the sports club and is your assistant. She is actually so loud with herself around you.
May, you don't get near an attachment bro. Or else my 2 year crushing era will kill you sharply.

Reminder :))

- From N. <3