Dark (a kian lawley fanfic)

Chapter 24

*Kian's POV*

I was pissed at myself. I chased Sam away. Again. I was going to have a kid.

I hear my phone beep.

Sam: You didn't prove that you would be a good boyfriend. You had your second chance and you screwed it up. We're over. Hope you have a nice life without me.

Oh shit. I screwed up. I probably wasn't going to be a part of this kid's life. I don't think I'm going to be there when she/he is born. I'm not going to be there taking care of Sam during her pregnancy. What have I done?

I go to the kitchen and take out a knife. What's the point of living if I can't be with my girlfriend and my future kid. I slit the knife across my wrist and slit down my arm. I let the blood drip to the sink.

*Sam's POV*

I'm better off without him. I don't fucking need him. I can take care of this baby without him. He wouldn't be a good father anyway. He would just scream at me all the time and he would probably scream at the kids.

Ok time to tell Lisa. The whole reason why I ran away was to get away from Kian. She hates Kian. I can't imagine her reaction once she finds out I'm gonna have a kid with him.

I drove back to her house and stayed the night. Lisa was downstairs and I went downstairs to tell her.

"Hey."

"Hey girlie!", she says.

"Ok do you promise not to mad at me?"

"Of course."

"Ok well...I'm pregnant."

"Congratulations!" She runs towards me with her arms open and she hugs me. I slightly hug back.

"Yeah but...Kian's uh...Kian's the dad." She stares at me wide eyed and she turns around and grabs her hair.

"I told you he was a bad influence."

"I know but-" I got interrupted by her hitting the cupboard door and looking down.

"Well Sam..." She looks up again.

"I'm kind of angry at you, but I'm still gonna support you. You are so lucky I still love you."

"Thank you so much." I hug her and she hugs back.

"I love you too.", I say in her shoulder. We break the hug and sit on the couch. We discuss about the baby.

"So, what's the name?", she asked.

"If it's a girl, it's definitely going to be Zoey and if it's a boy then probably James, Logan or Chase."

"I like James."

"Yeah me too. If it's a boy, I'll name him that."

My phone started playing "That's What You Get."

That's what you get when you let heart win whoa whoa whoa

I looked at the name and it said "Kian." I hesitated, but then I picked it up.

"Hello?"

"Sam, please listen to me. I'm super super sorry about everything. I want to be part of this baby's life. I may not be the perfect person for a parent, but I know that our kid will be what comes first. Please." I didn't say anything.

"Kian, I love you. But I gave you two chances and you screwed up. I can't let you be around this baby with the you treated me. I don't want us to those parents that just fight all the time. Bye." I hung up. Lisa frowns and pats my shoulder.

"You ok?" I shake my head no and start crying. I rest my head on her shoulder and sob. She hugs me and rests her head on my head.

"I can help you raise the baby. You can move in and all that. I'll set up a nursery."

"You would do that."

"Of course."

"I love you." I hug her and tackle her on the couch. We laugh and lay there for a while.

*Kian's POV*

I stared at myself in the mirror. Why? Why was I so stupid? Why did I have to hit the love of my life? Now I'm going to be a dad and I'm not going to be there for my kid. I stood up and punched the mirror. I look at my knuckles and go to the bathroom to wash them. I saw the familiar blade on the counter. What's the point of living if you're going to be dad when you're not even there. I slit down my arm and stab myself in the stomach. I lay down and let myself bleed.