cabin fever - jean k x reader

Pressure.

Cw: strong language, mentions of abuse, smut 😈

"I just don't understand why we had to get up so early." I hear Gabi whine from in front of me. I had to haul all the girls to the mess hall at 6:30 this morning to get started on cleaning up last nights events. Needless to say, they weren't very pleased.

"Gabi, if you really think about it. We made the mess so it's only fair that we help clean it up." Falco replies, ever the voice of reason. Thankfully, Jean also lugged his campers to come help, lightening the load.

I smile at the interaction as I fold up the last of the blankets, preparing them for the laundry. It's just about 7:45 and we have cleaned up mostly everything, we just need to put the tables back and we should be ready just in time for breakfast. I feel someone come up from behind me, I don't have to look to know who it is.

"Need any help?" He asks.

"Nope, I will take these to the laundry after breakfast. We should start bringing the tables back." I say and turn to look at Jean. He looks tired, he has the tiniest hint of bags under his eyes, and his eyelids are drooping a bit. "You didn't have to come help, ya know. You could've slept in. You look whooped."

Jean waves me off. "Tch. I've never been more awake in my life. You're telling me this isn't how you want to spend your morning?" He teases.

I nudge him with my elbow. "Smartass."

We finish cleaning up and everything is back to normal when the first groups come piling in for breakfast. I see Sasha and Mikasa and they hustle over to join us. Not long after, Eren, Armin, Marco and Connie have sat down as well. The kids at one end of the table and us at the other. I'm sitting between Jean and Connie, with Sasha and Mikasa across from us. Jean is bickering with Eren about something, and I'm trying to tune them out to talk to the girls.

"So- Hitch is like fired fired?" Sasha asks.

I shrug. "I guess so. Levi said she would be gone by 8AM and she's not here so I can only assume he was telling the truth. He said she has to give a statement to the police today so maybe she's meeting with them now."

"Good riddance." Mikasa interjects. "What she did is unforgivable. I might kill her if she walked in here right now."

"Yeah, I guess. I don't think she really knew what he -. Who he was. But still, I don't want to see her either." I say.

"So what does that mean for you then? Who will be your co counsellor now?" Sasha asks.

"No clue. I have to go meet with Levi and Erwin this afternoon so I assume I'll find out then."

I'm feeling the weight of last nights fiasco dawn on me. It's hard to put up a happy exterior with all that went down. I can't help but feel a little guilty, and embarrassed. Embarrassed at the fact that I had to drag Jean into all of this, so early into whatever it is we have going on between us. Embarrassed that I always seem to need saving and I know it's not easy on my friends. Especially Connie and Sasha, who have been there for me since the start of all of this. I look down at my plate hoping the conversation will die down. Jean and Eren are still arguing over something, a video game I think. But I feel someone place a hand on my thigh and gently squeeze. Connie is double fisting his breakfast sandwich beside me so I know it's Jean. I didn't even know he was paying attention to my conversation. My heart does a flip in my chest at the small gesture. He's reassuring me that he's here, and I feel a little bit better.

We finish up breakfast and I head to the gym with the girls and Sasha and Mikasa. We're going to play dodgeball. Gabi is elated. I'm trying to keep myself distracted from the upcoming meeting so I decide to take part in the game today. Maybe it will give me a moments peace.