How the table's turned (Ryeji)

Lost her

Ryujin Pov

It's been a week. A lot but nothing at all has happened. I haven't talked to Yeji in a week. Lia has completely shut me out and Chaeryeong has been distant. Her and Bangchan went on a date. I haven't heard about it yet but apparently it did not go well. Yeji and Felix are getting closer. I don't think Yeji likes him though, or that's what I'm telling myself. I talked to my parents today. They are doing well but they miss me a lot and I miss them too. I want to go back so bad but it would throw away this amazing opportunity. Even though this week was boring and shitty it won't make me leave. I want to talk to Yeji. I've given her some space but I can't stay here without her by my side. 

I have spent a lot of time with Yuna. I explained to her the whole Yeji situation. She was very real with me when I told her what happened. She told me I was indeed the asshole and that I needed to give her space. I know I have to make the first step to talk to her. She wants me to get on my knees and apologise. I know I have jealousy problems and that's something I need to deal with. Yeji doesn't know I like her. She doesn't even know I'm gay. Do I just say I thought that Felix was not a good person even though I had no right to say that? Anyways. The results of who is going to be on the dance team comes out today. I'm excited. I need to make up with Ryujin before 5pm today, because that's when everyone gets the email about who got in. 

We are driving to school right now. Mrs. Kim made us a nice breakfast, as she knows I am stressed for the results of the tryouts. I arrive at school.

Chaeryeong Pov

I don't want to be here. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want want to go to school. I want to stay in bed forever. You're probably wondering why I want this right now and it's because of the pressure. The pressure of being on top of my academic. The pressure of being a star dancer. The pressure of being a good friend. The pressure of balance. Lately it's been too much and with the dance season starting it is only going to get harder. I wish I could pause time and sit on my bed forever eating potatoes, but I can't. Time will continue to move forward no matter if I am ready or not. 

It is break time. I wanna talk to Ryujin but Lia has been telling me that she's bad news. We resolved the mortifying thing that happened last Friday, and we talked a few times this week. She's not a bad person she's just, a bit all over the place. I don't understand how Lia can drop a person when they are clearly hurting. Hurt people hurt people and that is what Ryujin did to Yeji, and now they haven't spoken in a week. At least it's a Friday. This week has been so chaotic trying to navigate everything I already had going on plus the drama, like this week is so messed up. The principle decided that because of my status normal detention after school wasn't enough. Tomorrow I am going to have to go to school for three hours as a Saturday detention. Ryujin will be with me but it is still gonna be hell sitting in a room  and having to wake up early on a Saturday. Ryujin and I got out of doing it last Saturday but I can't do that now. 

I decide to walk into my office because I need some space. I walk into the room without turning on the lights and sit down in my chair. I put my head down. Thoughts flood my brain. At this point I'm just gonna focus on dance and academic. I am not having all of this drama affect what is truly important for me and my future. 

*Knock Knock*

"Oh for the love of god." I say to myself.