Angels Tribute

Burn

Kanashii was a young teen who had just been married to the love of her life as she had met him only in a small class that both lovers had taken together... It was til after the honeymoon a couple of weeks after Kanashii was screaming at Ford after he had found out about her pregnancy as he was disgusted by her.

"Please, Please don't go! I didn't mean for this to happen!" Kanashii dropped to the floor on her knees as tears ran down her face as she begged her husband. "Ford.. honey please stop what your doing" She tried grabbing at his hands before he shoved her aside.

"Stop it. You chose this to happen, And you knew how busy I've been with work and what everyone else expects of me. I'm tired of it, Kana... I just can't be here right now." She cried more as she pulled at his legs dragging him close to her. "You can't leave me... You just can't! I promise you Ford Surikizu you're gonna regret leaving me." Ford looked at her once more before shaking his head and walking out of the door.

After his disappearance, Kanashii gave birth to twins as she had named the two. "Tamashiini and Scarlett." She had said as she tried holding onto the two. After her birth, she couldn't afford many things but her small family was lucky enough to live in a small cabin as their mother worked as a singer in a bar.

(Kanashinii pov)

"I guess I did have too much to drink.."I rub my throbbing forehead as I stumbled before I look down at my child. My son... God but why does he look so much like him... I then grab at him pulling him by his hair. "Don't you ever leave? Do you understand me?" He cries. His cries are too loud.

It hurts...

Shut up...

Just shut up already.

...................

"I'm so sorry my baby... My beautiful baby boy."

I stroke his head patting him down.

(Narrator pov)

A few years later the two twins went to a small Catholic school as one of the twins did great excluding the other.

"What the hell is this? Explain now..." Kanashii was enraged and in a drunken state as she grabbed her daughter by her hair. Scarlett was seen with a boy that was her boyfriend at the time as Tamshini told their mother about him. "Please mama, I don't know him!" Scarlett cried out as they tried to calm down Kanashii softly rubbing her hand.

"Bullshit, You think you can.." Kanashii paused before smacking Scarlett hard as she dropped to the floor. "I don't want you seeing that boy again... I raised you better than this... You don't wanna end up like your father do you..?" Scarlett paused as tears flew from her face as she wept soaking the floor with their tears.

"I'm sorry mama, I promise I won't do it again.." Scarlett termed in her guilt and shame. "Get out of my sight." Kanashii hissed as she walked away leaving Scarlett by themselves. Behind her she can hear her brother enter the room, He hid as he heard the argument go down. "Scarlett... Im so-"

Scarlett ignored him as she threw a vase at him barely missing him. "Shut up! You are the one who got me in trouble... Way to be a momma's boy.." Scarlett dusted herself off as they then shoved Tamashii out of the way as he stood there in the hallway with an empty feeling. "..Im sorry.." Later earlier in the night Tamashii fell asleep on the couch he was then awakened by his mother coming into the room drunkenly as she dropped the empty bottle of beer onto the ground making her way over to her son.

"Tamashi~ You know how much Mama loves you, My precious baby boy," She said as she sat next to him petting his head. Tamshini sighed as he grabbed his mother's wrist. "Mom, You drunk again.." Kanashii's eyes widen a bit before she giggled softly cuddling Tamashini.

"I know but still. I love you so much." Tamshini looked at her as she slowly began to drift off into a deep sleep. "Mom... Before you go, Can you tell me about pops?" Kanashii didn't respond as she was knocked out asleep with her hand on Tamashini's as he held it tightly. "Nevermind..." He said as he covered himself along with her.

The next morning was the day. Everything would go down in flames...

(Kanashii pov)

I get up with my head throbbing in pain, "Ugh.. too much alcohol.." I say as I then stumble getting up off the couch before making my way I go to the restroom washing my face as I take a look at the lipstick still on my lips... I softly touch my lips as it stains my fingers I sigh before walking out back to my bedroom...

Under my bed, I store my gun as I take it out admiring it as I sit on my bed. I feel weak without it... I then walk out of the bedroom locking the door as I make my way over to my still-sleeping son... He's so precious to me. I then aim it at his head with my finger on the trigger. "You.. Look too much like him," I say out loud as the fuzzy thoughts pain my head like sharp needles impaling me.

I then gasp as I stop myself before shaking him awake... "Tamashini! Wake up please.." I cup his face as I give him a kiss on his cheek. "Do you wanna help Mama?" I laugh as if I was crazy. Tears then start to fill my eyes as I hand over the gun to him. "Mom? W-Where did you get this from!?" He says as he looked at the pistol in my hand. "I don't want it... I don't Mom I'm sorry."

He said before getting up and I shoved him against the wall. "You love your mother, Very deeply... You must do this for her." I see him tremble in fear. It excites me... "Your sister... She hurts your mother." I say as I brush the strains of hair away from his face as I feel my lips curl into a grin. "You need to save Mommy okay?.." He nods before hesitantly taking the gun from my hands as I let go of his shoulders before he walks towards her bedroom...

It's quiet... very quiet. I then slowly move my way over before hearing a loud bang. I stop in my tracks as the echoing gun shoot echo's through my ears leaving them to ring before I open the door seeing him stand there with his finger on the trigger. Stepping closer I then see her body... I'm happy. So so happy and proud of my baby boy. It is wrong but it feels so good...

we get into a small argument before it ends and I see him pointing the gun at my head... I love him, I love him so much and am so proud of him. I then feel the bullet crash into my skull it persists in my brain as I fall backward onto the floor... It only hurts for a good minute. Afterward, it's rather... Peaceful.

After then I feel my body being burned as my blood reeks of gasoline and the flames with insanity... It hurts. So much but I love it. I don't move at once but feel.

Once in my life, I meet my lover, he's handsome tall and strong. I stand near the rusty lockers as I see him then approach me as he hands me a small rose in his hand. "For you... It's nothing but.." He said as he looked away from me. I take the small gift before giving him a kiss on his cheek. "Thank you, Ford Surikiizu." He chuckles as he mocks me the same "Your welcome Kanashii Ortiz"