I left my phone at home today and I hope ana doesn't do anything stupid I'm thinking about ending it. She's a drama queen. Thinks I wanna fuck anything that walks. I was at work for over 18 hours and as I got home I only wanted to talk to Sarah.
It's been 3 years and I still miss her . Ana's ok but she's more into drama.
I walked in to see ana cooking and my stomach turned. She's a horrible cook.
I went to my room to see my phone still on the charger where I forgot it. IV been with swat for a little over a year now and it's been great. It's coming home that's the problem.
I don't love ana. Not like I should. She wants to get married but I don't see it.
I'd love a family but the girl I want I stupidly pushed away.
I checked it to see nothing from Sarah so I tried to call but no answer. I figured she was just on class
3 days later she still wasn't answering and I was worried .
Ana had been weirdly nice but I didn't see it .
On day 5 she finally answered
"Yes ana!"
"It's Dom why would u think it's ana" I asked confused .
"Well let's see ur fucking fiance when I didn't even know u were engaged calls me from ur phone screaming that I need to leave u alone and how u said I was the best lay I had on the beach. Then u fuckin text me talking about u love me but u don't want a book worm so what do u want Dom. If I was nothin but a lay I wish idv never met u. U ment everything to me. But I see I ment nothing" she said crying.
I tried to re assure her it wasn't me but she wouldn't listin.
She told me she didn't have time for games and hung up.
I couldn't believe this.before I could ask ana about it my phone pinged with screen shots and a recording.
It was all true.
Even the text.
I stormed out after trying to call her back and screamed at ana to get out
"Y she's obviously doesn't want u" she said as I threw her purse on the lawn.
"I'm not leaving my own house!" She yelled as I sub mitted and said
"Fine I'll go"
I packed dmy uniforms and all my shit which wasn't much and left .
"Dom don't leave please I just wanted her to back off "
"No u wanted me alone. She was the best thing to ever happen to me and I dummy threw her away. Fuck u" I slammed the door and crashed at my parents. I tried for a few more days but on day ten I heard a recording that broke my heart.
"The number uv called has been changed or is no longer in service"
She changed her number .
The woman I love changed her number .
I stupidly pushed her away and now she's gone.
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(10 years later)
I currently work for swat but I injured my hip recently so I'm on med leave. A guy is on the team temporarily.
Iv had girlfriends and hell even gave ana another chance but nothing ever worked. I went house to house for a while but I finally was able to buy a house .
I tried to work on it alone but streets mom acting up I offered him one of my spare bedrooms.
I still think about Sarah though.y parents think it's weird because she was a highschool friend but I loved ... No I still love her. The way things ended put me on a bad spot for a while. I tried to call her parents but they refuse to speak.
That night on the beach made me realize what I felt for her. I love her. I pushed her away thinking it was good but I fucked up.
I wanted her so bad that day at the airport. I wanted to fucking propose . Hell I had and still have the ring.
It's black and has the moon stone she loves.
I ran into her mom a few years ago and learned she married some prick. Ms.bev died about a year later but Sarah and her had a falling out so she didn't come to the funeral.
I wish I could just tell her how I feel. But I don't know how to get ahold of her.
I go back next week and I can't wait. I love with street currently and his girlfriend. Cris ,who is also swat is comin by today and bringing some new recruit.
I hope this new guy has common sense
We were working on the house when Cris pulled up. And I thought I was hallucinating
