Succeed

anguish

"Come walk with me dear May," he grabbed my arm once like he did last time. "I am so glad you returned, We did not get on the right foot per say," a laugh escapes him.

"Funny joke, Agnon." I tried to find an escape, but I could not get captured again.

"Now May, How is the Resistance?" he patted my arm, like old friends. "I apologize for taking this city but it did have good supplies that could not be passed by the Order."

"It will be better once you let me go," I said.

"Oh, May" A tsk came from his mouth. "I don't think I can do that, we have a guest visiting us today who would be so glad to see you."

My eyes widened.

"I really must be going," I tried to budge.

He had a firm grip and led me back to the First Order area of the village.

"Is this optional? I mean, I just have to tell you about the Resistance right? They are fine and Leia sends her love," I sarcastically say as I try to buy myself time.

"How sweet, No it is not optional, do not be rude Ms.May. Kylo Ren has been waiting to speak to you since you sadly left us unannounced," he says in a mocking tone.

We got to the docking bay. A ship was there. He led me up the ship and in the little holding room was a table and two chairs, one with restraints and one not. I guessed which one was going to be mine.

"Supreme Leader," Agnon said, bowing.

"Well done Lieutenant." "You may leave us."

"Yes, of course," he left the room.

I was left standing by the locked door.

"Sit, your my guest," he said.

I scoffed. But then I felt my body without me thinking. What was happening? My body was automatically latched around my arms.

"This is one way to treat your guests, Supreme Leader,"

"Watch your tone, scum, don't forget how I earned the title, your dear friend Rey helped me succeed in gaining my title," he said.

I silenced myself.

"What do you want? You know everything, I don't have any new information." I lied.

"That's where your wrong, you know about things that have been puzzling many of the First Order things that have taken years."

"I know how to fight you Ren, or should I call you Ben Solo?" Wrong idea.

I felt pain flying through my entire body.

"Don't say things you will regret."

I tried to fight him, I thought I knew how to fight him. Rey told me how. Imagine a strong wall. Imagine it never falling even if you can feel it cracking. But I could feel it cracking, I felt it crumpling. I couldn't stand the pain. I broke.

"Please, R-rey," I cried. Help me.

"You aren't force sensitive, no one can hear you except me," he said.

Those files I organized and read through were his, and the information I learned at my debrief, was his.

"Kill me already!" I screamed. "I know, I-i Im useless, damn it kill me!" I said, crying.

I still felt the pain as he got up from his seat and kneeled to match where my eyes were.

He searched my eyes, trying to understand. I looked at him for only a moment and could see conflict, he felt horrible but at the same time, he was enjoying watching me suffer.

"What is the fun in that?" he said. He grabbed his lightsaber and ignited it. He put it in front of me as he stood behind me. He slowly let the one horizontal blade go down my skin, I felt a burning on my face, and I yelped trying to act brave. As the scar started bleeding he grabbed a black towel and laid it on my face. "This will remind you never to run again, We will make sure of that." He looked up at the door and Agnon returned. I then looked at Ren again his hand raised, and I could hear words but it felt like I was watching myself. Agnon grabbed my wrist and led me out, I was in a daze, a trance. I walked to the edge of the forest and Agnon threw me down.

"Don't forget this May, you will always be scum," he said.

I finally woke up and I heard scuffling and put my hand on the blaster.

"Who's there?" I yelled. I was shaking. Why? They spared me and I was given something to cover my horrible scar. I was alive.

"Mayflower?" A voice said.

"Evette?"

"Jesus, May what happened you were gone for only an hour." She said

"You know me, Trouble loves me," I said in a tipsy-like tone, drunk in shock. 

She removed the towel with the First Order emblem and gasped.

"Kylo Ren is here, damn it," she said

"I want the towel back," I begged

She put it back over my scar and we went back to base, she did what she could and made sure it was not infected.

"I need to get back, Poe needs me back," I demanded. "T-the cargo is behind the First Order table, It has the insignia on the corner,"

"Good, that's good I will get Logan out there, but May, I don't think you can handle this anymore, the First Order knows who you are, and the target on your back is huge here in Batuu."

"No, I have a mission and I complete it," I said. "I signed myself up for this, it's my fault."

Vi gave me a frustrated look as she wrapped the scar with a bandage.

"Go home alright?"

I nodded. I walked back to my transport and turned it back on, putting the coordinates to D'Qar back inside. I took a deep breath.

"This is Mayflower, Mayflower requesting access to return."

"This is Dameron, May how did it go?"

"Poe," I sighed. "You will see when I return." 

  "That's exciting," he stated in a sarcastic tone. 

I got the ship in the air and flew back.

The stars are my only comfort.