Know your worth

The beginning

High school. The beginning of your life. You meet new friends, becoming more responsible, body changes, adult life ahead of you, bullying, starting fights, tears, blood, and let's not forget relationships. Who would've guessed. This is my first year in high school not the prettiest year I've ever had. Making new friends was already something difficult for me. Since middle school I've been the little girls playing alone during break times since no one wanted to play with me. I was just walking throwing rocks in front of me not really caring "Why don't you go play with them?" Teachers says. Little does she know I've tried billion times but always ended up getting rejected. So I decided to go hang out with people like me. With no friends. Now what. They are laughing? I guess I'll go back at staying alone right.
Few years later they been nicer they are talking me inviting me strange? Hey why don't you come join us at the park after school it will be fun. I had this big crush on this guy I've always loved in middle school so like every other girl. He was coming too. And whenever he goes I'll go. We all went to the park it was fun nothing crazy. We had this crazy dance after school that everybody was exited about. We were just kids you know but it was fun acting like we were grown up enough because high school is coming next year. I decided to go to this dance for fun. Everyone was dancing it was fun my fake group of friend were talking to me everything was already going so fast. Suddenly one of my friend asks me out. All of them and her as well encourages me to go out with him since she doesn't love him anymore. So I do say yes. I'm simply a little girl with no boundaries and can't say no. Next day at school he breaks up with me. Then everyone is mad at me they all hate me and make fun of me. Cool fine. End of the middle school year I'll never see them good.

First year of high school I made new friends that were actually more real and fun. She liked to make fun of others that's how she spend her times
and I decided to stick with her. We were in a sport class we also had a lot of activity out of the school not like other classes. I made a lot of friends I really did. It was so fun this time. I joined the basketball team and was getting better at it. I was so happy I would always be texting with my friends it was a total different world to me. Let's call her V. V loves to make fun of other ppl she was always insulting this girl in our basketball team but then acted like she loves her all again. So I decided to join her in it. I thought it was fun but in reality it wasn't. We would always text eachother and make fun of other. One day I go to school and everyone is against me. I got insulted and pushed in the hallways not even knowing why. I started receiving death treats all over on my phone and it wouldn't stop. I guess that was karma but my little me didn't understand why I was only making new friends. School is over I'm just walking to take my bus on this windy cold day. Then I hear some screaming my name and a bunch of other insults. My feeling got hurt I didn't understand what was happening to me. I texted v but she keeps ignoring me. I asked others then realized she leaking all our conversations. But when I read them they were photoshopped... she was saying all the good things and me the bad things. I would fake sick and stopped going to school for a week. A group of 20 people were always following me everytime I would get out of class and set me up in a corner to make fun of me. I'm going all back again. It was horrible I just wanted to hide forever. Not going to school was so more quiet and peacefull I knew no one would jump me after class. I cried so much those days only if you knew. I would stay outside in that park crying alone letting it all out. Me and V became friends then broke again it was no worth it. That's how me and v relationship ended.

Then my first boyfriend..