Adopted by Dan And Phil (DISCONTINUED)

Chapter five

Chapter five

You're being too open! You're just gonna get hurt again! Dan and Phil don't care and they never will! You are fat, ugly, worthless, and disgusting! No one will ever love you!

That was what went through my head as I sat up in my bed. I believed the voice. It's right. I am ugly and worthless and fat and disgusting. It failed to mention that I'm a waste of space too.

I craved my blade more than ever. I remembered that I made a promise to Dan and Phil, but it's not exactly easy to keep. I looked to my wrist and saw the rubber bands. I snapped one and felt the feeling go away. In fact, it felt weird. Then I realized how bad cutting is. I ripped the rubber bands off, put my bracelets, and walked over to my dresser to get some clothes.

I walked to the shower and started it, making it hot. It burned my skin as I got in, but it didn't bother me. I put a random shampoo in my hair and scrubbed.

When I finished, I stepped out and quickly got dressed. I ended up wearing black skinny jeans, a death note shirt, and my vans. I looked in the mirror. My semi-dry hair fell past my shoulders. My long-ish legs were covered with denim but they looked fat. My face was just plain ugly. I hate myself and nothing was going to change.

I walked into the lounge to see Dan and Phil watching Attack On Titan. " HELLO!" Phil shouted as I entered the room. I flinched slightly at his loudness. "Oh, sorry! Forgot you don't like loud noises." He said while rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly. "Don't worry about it, you forgot." I smiled.

"To the train!" Phil said walking toward the door. Dan and I smiled and followed. We walked down the stairs and the street to go and take on the streets of London!

A/N: it takes awhile bc I type it on notes and then paste. So I usually take my time. Love you guys :)