Half and Half (Oblivious!Eren x Reader x Slight!Yandere Levi)

Voices in His Head

You made the decision to trust Eren more than yourself. Keeping your distance from Levi should put you into a safe zone, or maybe even Levi himself. You hugged Eren, and nodded.

"If that's what you want, then I won't go near him anymore. I trust you, Eren." You stated.

Surely, you felt a little hurt that you won't go back to those days anymore. You won't be so close to him. But it's for the best. Eren pulled away and planted a moist kiss on the corner of your lips.

"I'm happy to hear that." He says as he grabbed your chin, forcing you to make eye contact with him.

He gave you a comforting smile as did you. 

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"Hold still—" 

"Stop touching me. I'm fine." Levi slaps Hanji's hands away from him as he stood up.

"Hmph! I'm glad Eren gave you a good beating." Hanji crossed her arms and pouted, turning away from him, yet he didn't care.

"You haven't answered my question." Hanji pointed out.

"Hn?" Levi refused to look at her as he ran his fingers through his hair.

"My question." She reminded him.

"........." Levi sighed, feeling one of his eyes that was patched up with a white cloth.

"Levi?" Hanji called out.

"It's none of your business whether I still like her or not. Besides, what difference does it make?" Levi claimed.

"...... You're... In love with her, aren't you?" Hanji concluded.

"I...." Levi couldn't say it no more. Hanji was right...

"You know those nightmares I've been experiencing?" Levi asks.

"Yeah?"

"I always thought it was so sickening... But for some reason, it gave me satisfaction, pleasure that filled me up. I... I enjoyed it." Levi looked down in shame.

"I wanted to believe that those dreams don't define who I am... But the more I think about it, the more I began to doubt.... Just one look at her face can make me go crazy. I just... Want it all."  He looked at his hand, frowning.

"Levi?"

Why does she have to exist? Why does she have to appear before me? Even though I love her so much, I can't bear the fact that she's afraid of my affections for her. That's just how I express love. Is it so wrong to do that? I can't control myself.... I need help... I want her. But she doesn't want me....

"Levi." Hanji repeated.

"What?" 

"You were spacing out. Are you alright?" Hanji slowly approached to him, making sure to catch him if he feels fatigue.

"It hurts so much..." He murmured as he clenched onto his shirt, where his heart is located, and clawed it.

"Are you okay?" Hanji taps on his shoulder.

"Just leave me alone.... Stay away from me...."

"Why is that?"

"You wouldn't understand." Levi says as he exits the room, leaving Hanji alone.

No one would....

He admitted it. Those disturbing memories weren't nightmares. To him, they were dreams. And he despised himself for liking it. He wanted to deny that he was truly happy when you squirmed under him. He wanted to become dominant. He wanted everything of you. Yet, he paid the price. Eren came and took you away from him.

Yes... That titan shifter....

Levi's dark emotions were slowly coming back. But this time, he decided to swallow up his desired words to say to you and continue on forward. But if there is ever a time you made eye contact with him again, he will surely lose himself in a state of mind, mentally.

I really want to touch her again... I want to hold her.

But I can't.....

He held his wrist tightly, feeling deep pain and regret of ever knowing her... You.... He refuses to let you go. There's no one for him but you. He will never get a second opportunity or a chance if he ever loses you. 

No, I can't.... I don't want her to leave me....

Levi was struggling with his memories that were triggered by the dreams. He was beginning to piece things together, one by one. 

Who will stand by me?

I don't love anyone as much as her. She's the only one for me. I don't want anyone to have her. Why does she hate me so? Why does my chest burn? Am I experiencing the symptoms again? Amnesia?.....

He was completely frustrated with his current situation. He loved you too much, he couldn't bear to lose you..... 

Yeah... They're coming back.... Very slowly.....