"DROWNED !N BLOOD"

chapter 7

Yoongi's pov:
Yoongi : *sigh*, Can u please shut that beautiful stupid mouth of yours? My ears are bleeding. At least stop yelling!

Y/n: *eye roll* I'm Not yelling can't you see, I'm Singing~
FUtUrE's GoNnA bE OkAy, oKaY

OKaY okay LoOk at tHe miRrOr aNd I sEe nO pAiN~~
I'D dIe fOr rEaL tiLl tHe
D-Day, bUt it's gOnNa bE oKaY....

Yoongi: y/nnnn slow down your voice!!!!! For the Gods sake I'm reminding you that I'm driving!!  Reduce that fvcking volume of the player at least.

Y/n : Noo~ suga is slaying><

Yoongi: *sighing in despair *
She was better dozed off, my bad that I woke up. God!

Y/n : TImE fOr sOmE pAychEck aNd I'm riDiNn' doWnTtoWn.
SWitch ovEer, tIMeeee tiCkiN aNd oVer-

Yoongi: *switches off*

Y/n: How dare you!

Yoongi : I did cause u dare to .
It's enough songs. Time for some peace.

Y/n: *whining* The best part was about to come *teary eyes*

Yoongi: it's the 7th time you're playing that song over and over. *done*

Y/n: *sniffs* I hate you!

Yoongi : "I know."
He said his eyes focused on the road '

Y/n: rests back on the seat and slides down the windows for some air to pass....

Slowly the liquor took  over the scene and her eye lids got heavier. And soon she slowly drifted back to her dreamland.

Yoongi watched her sleep and tucked her hair that was falling over her face disturbing her face.
He felt sorry for her.
He like her. And he knows she likes him too. No, nothing romantic but the affection was something different.
He lost his mother at a very young age. Since the grew up with his father alone. He had nannys to take care of him. But is that enough for a 8 year old boy? No. He was never lucky to feel love. He was alone in darkness. He had no one else to play with. He was forced to learn this mafia business even thought he never wanted it. But it was necessary. He had to take over everything one day after his father retires he knew the responsibility he was born with. He had no childhood like the other boys of his age. He had no one in his life to take over that mother position until his father married. (Mrs Park / now Mrs min) Y'ns Mother. She was a very lovely sweet and caring women. She took care of him like her own child. He loved her so much too. He was happy that now he a sister to play with. Not maybe by blood. But she loved him like her own.
(yoongi's father married Y/n's mother when yoongi was 15 and y'n was 11, no y/n is not his real sister, I hope there is no other confusion If you do please comment)

Everything was fine until y/n's mom passed away 5 years after. when she was just 16. She was broke. She lost the only this she had in her life. The only thing that protected her whole life. She lost her mom. I knew her pain. I wanted to be there for her when was broke. But I couldn't. I felt the same pain again, which I felt 12 years ago. When mom passed away. I was alone again. My hope and light I had was her mom. Whom I love loved with my whole heart. Maybe even more than I've ever loved dad. I lost her. Soon, I realised...
" the worst day of loving someone is the day you loose them "

Since then I promised myself to never ever love someone to a limit that might put me into pain again.

And that's what I followed.
From then, I kept my distance from everyone. Y/n,dad and from everyone I knew. I choose to become heartless. Or maybe I should say.
"I choose to pretend like I was heartless "

I remember how hurt y/n was when she realized that I was pushing her away every single time she came to me to spend some quality time with me.
But I always avoided her.
Years passed and her hurt for me turned out to be hatred.