My Personal Hell

Twilight

*~Oh, who is she?..~*
          *~A misty memory~*
A verse from the song Who Is She ? By I Monster
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I woke up alone on Tom's bed. I remembered what happened last night and couldn't help but feel disappointed in myself.

I just slept with a man who did horrible things to me.

I have so much guilt built up inside of me I could explode now.

I immediately dressed and walk to the kitchen where everyone was eating at the table.

Georg: Sleeping beauty is finally awake guys.

Everyone turned their heads to look at me while I just gave a embarrassed smile.

I sat next to kayana but felt Tom's eyes on me. I ignored it but made eye contact like two times but I quickly broke it.

I finished eating the breakfast and went to their backyard.

I sat on the edge of their pool putting my feet in.

Tom: Are you ok?

I heard him say as he sat next to me.

Aurora: yeah.

I spoke worried because this is the first civil conversation we had.

Tom: Sorry I left you in the morning you looked, tired.

Aurora: Please just stop.

Tom: Stop what?

Aurora: Stop talking to me like everything is normal!

I said getting up facing him as he did the same.

Tom: What are you talking about?

Aurora: Are you forgetting how you repeatedly hurt me and kidnapped me?

Aurora: Stop talking to me like I have a choice to be here and actually like your company.

Tom: If so then why did you sleep with me.

Aurora: Moment of weakness Tom, and I deeply regret it.

Aurora: You didn't even try to apologize for what you put me through.

Tom: I don't need to apologize because I do what I want to do, I take who I want to take Aurora.

He growled as he got closer to me lifting my chin up with his finger so I can look at him.

Our lips were so close I felt his lip piercing rubbing up on my lip.

I gently pushed him away.

Aurora: Please Tom if you actually have a heart don't do this..

Tom: What exactly am I doing to you?!?!

Aurora You know what Tom and you feel the same.

I yelled at him annoyed

His expression turned shocked knowing I was right.

Tom: Is it so wrong? I mean I let my guard down for you.

Aurora: It is when you put me through so much trama, I try to look at you a different way but I only see a cold man kidnapping me and abusing me. And if you are suggesting having sex with people is letting your guard down you are wrong. It's definitely not the definition of it.

Aurora: I can't forget it.

Tom: You can forgive it though?

Aurora: I can't..

Tom: So what are you suggesting Aurora.

Aurora: I don't want to fall in love with a person like you.

I said coldy seeing his sad face.

Tom: You are just gonna give up that easily?

He said as his tone was slowly becoming more harsh.

Aurora: There was nothing for me to fight for from the start..

Tom: We can grow something for you to fight for.

Aurora: How am I supposed to let this relationship grow?!?!

Aurora: I have bruises and scars from you Tom.

Tom: I don't know how to love Aurora!

Tom: You are nothing like the other women I have been with. Something about you just makes me want to..

He said before cutting himself off.

I give him a soft gaze before he continued.

Tom: Be good.

I smile a little but stop myself.

Aurora: I can't believe you until I see it.

As I said that his worried face became cold as he instantly regretted expressing his feelings.

Tom: Being weak will get you nowhere. Go ahead be a difficult person, it doesn't bother me.

He said completely changing into a different person he was a couple of seconds ago.

He walks past me shoving my shoulder.

I growl at his stupidity before going back inside to.

As I went in there everyone was cuddling up with each other. I looked for Tom but he wasn't there.

Aurora: Where did Tom go?

Gustav: He angrily stormed off into his car and drove away.

Georg: Yeah what did you say to him?

Aurora: Nothing that matters or that's important.

I tiredly said sighing rubbing my temples as I sat down on the edge of the couch looking at everyone having a partner but me.

I rolled my eyes and turned a movie on.

I quickly fell asleep after.

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I woke up hearing the door slam open hardly.

I open my eyes to see Tom making out with a girl pig style.

I closed my eyes as they started walking over to where I was.

I pretended to sleep as the girl was rubbing up on the part of the arm(the couch arm) I was putting my head on.

I smelled her cheep perfume that didn't even smell good and the disgusting wet sounds of their lips all up on each other.

I groan in annoyance catching the annoying girl's attention as she turned around to face me.

?: Um Tommy who is that?

She said poking me with her dirty pink nail.

Tom: No one important, come on vivi let's go up to my room.

Vivi: Ok baby.

Their close footsteps quickly turned into faint ones.

Not even 4 minutes later there was bed pounding, moaning, and claps.

I quickly fall back to sleep not trying to hear or be apart of that.

Sorry guys this is a really short chapter but I will make some later today I promise 🤞🏽🫶🏽