LOVING YOU !!! {SASUSAKU ONESHOTS}

Hate You ♡

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SASUKE'S POV

It's been a month...
A month since we broke up , it was supposed to feel nice , but honestly I've been feeling empty inside . Heh I really thought I wouldn't care , but now I realise that I do..

I'm anxious, kinda sad
Hard to be your best when you lost the best you had
Spending days just on my phone
Wondering where it all went wrong...

Ohh how pathetic I feel while looking at your photos right now .
How did we become what we are now from lovebirds to strangers who act like they've never met before. Where did we go wrong maybe this will make me strong.
I guess I was wrong, thinking that I'll be just fine without you. You were like a beam of light in my dark life , you changed my life , ..me but I guess it will be back to how it was again.

I'm nervous, pretty wired
I said your name too much now my lungs got tired
Thinking maybe I'm to blame
I just need someone to hate

Sakura.. why did you have to leave me like this , we promised forevers , so why . I- I know what I did was wrong , I should had been more honest before but , why couldn't you just - just forgive me .? I still call out your name in the morning only to realise that you're gone .

Oh-oh-oh, you made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinking

But you just left me standing on the doorway ..you didn't even care to listen but what would've I said even if you did .?
I cheated...
I broke your trust I broke us .
I-I wasn't in my right mind to like a girl that wasn't you , I really don't know what got into me ..
I..really...don't..
All I know is that , I really don't know how to move on , I can't hate you but I wish I did ..

I wish you would've cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong?
Wish you did something wrong
But you did nothing wrong

I wish you were the one to blame , not me , I wish for even once I could've got you out of my mind.
I wish it was you who tore me apart . Not the other way round . Maybe I shouldn't have lied when you tried to confront me. Sakura you should've had believed , when I said that it won't happen again .
For me You were a little too quick to decide what to do.

I know it's messed up, kinda bad
But I wish we didn't talk, and you just left like that
I'd be angry instead of numb
Dammit, who have I become?

Karin was stupid and she got me fooled , but while I breathe I hope I will find a reason to hate you ... I heard from Naruto that you've been doing well day by day . What about me though , I suffer every second of my life ...thinking that time will heal it all but it doesn't. Something has collapsed inside me , it feels weird .... I can't breathe everything is reminding me of you .
Your smell still lingers in my bed. It feels weird to wake up alone
I miss that feeling I used to get when you called my name . Your sweet touch and your taste .

In the middle of the night
I start to fantasise that you would ruin my whole life, oh
'Cause you're the best I had
And I keep running back like a goddamn fool, tryna change your mind
You were all mine
Can't believe I

Wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong?

Remembering the times when you were mine hurts my heart , hate how I still love you the way I did before ... how did it end like this , I really don't know ..
There is darkness everywhere , I think I might be lost in a void , the silence is eating me up ..
I'm out of tears now , Gosh it hurts to even think about you ..
Wondering when I got so weak , I can't even breathe .
I'm still loving you with all my heart telling myself that you aren't far away from me ..
I guess now I'll light up a cigarette cause you never wanted me to smoke....
Are you really alright without me Sakura, really ??
I know our love wasn't soo weak , maybe what I did was wrong but the worst thing is that even after accepting this ugly fact , you will never come back , I lost you Sakura I did ...

Shikamaru suggested me to try to move on but how can I ?, how can I stop loving you when you never did anything wrong ? You were like an angel , I was blessed with, but I let you go .. I disappointed you .....

I don't know if I'll ever have the courage to accept this in front of you or not but I'm sorry Sakura,

I really am....

"Not friends,
Not enemies,
Just strangers
with some memories..."

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Song Name ~ I wish you cheated by Alexander Stewart