I'm not Samantha | trans story

26: Party pt. 2

Tw: death of the queen

We began the truth or daring.

First Hazy asked thatqueerkid.
"Max, truth or dare?"
"Dare, because I have nothing to live for," came Max's reply, with a mischievous glint in his eyes.
"I dare you to go kiss Josh in the closet," Hazy said completely deadpan, earning a raised eyebrows from me.

Max's eyes sparkled as he looked over at Josh. A smile was tugging at the corners of Josh's mouth.
"I mean, if you say so," Max said, taking Josh by the hand and leading them to the large cupboard in the corner of the room. They both squeezed in, shut the door and stayed there for the rest of the night.

"Now that they're both gone, who's turn is it now?" I enquired, as I realised it was only me, Hazy, and one other girl I didn't know the name of. I squinted at her name sticker and saw the name Mari.

"I'll go next," Mari volunteered, and I noticed she had a very quiet voice, almost whispering. I guessed she was a little younger than me or Helen, perhaps around fifteen.

"Miso, truth or dare?" She asked me.
What should I pick? If I picked truth some bad stuff could happen, but I seriously hated doing dares.
"I guess I'll pick truth," I said, bracing myself for the worst.

"What's your favorite shirt?" Mari asked. I couldn't help blinking in surprise, I was glad it was a nice easy question.

"Probably my Hawaiian shirt that looks like someone in their mid-fifties who has completely given up, except mine has corgis on it," I answered. (If you know, you know.)

"Why's it got corgis?" Hazy asked, looking a tad confused.
"I don't know, the queen dying or something," I replied.
From the closet in the corner, I heard a muffled yell. "THE QUEEN'S DEAD??!"

"What the-" I thought it better not to ask.

"Anyway, it's my turn now," I continued. I racked my brains for some good truths and dares. I didn't want to ask anything too personal, even though I'd known these people for a while and knew all their worst trauma.

"Okay Helen, truth or dare?" I asked. I knew most of her secrets already, but it would still be fun to find out anymore.
"I'll pick dare," she said, doing one of those really fake smiles that's so fake you know it's supposed to be fake. Like 😀.

"Tell us a truth and a lie, we'll try and guess which is which," I said, glancing at Mari.
"Okay, lemme just think. Okay. One: I'm an orphan. Two: I'm bi."

"Holy-" that was a lot to take in.
Hazy couldn't be an orphan, she'd said this was her parents house. So that meant -

"You're bi! That's awesome! I've never actually met someone who is," I said happily.
"Really? Usually people are angry when I tell them," Helen said, looking sheepish.

"Why would I be angry? I totally support you! In fact -" then I stopped myself. I couldn't believe what I'd almost said.

"In fact what?" Hazy asked, looking at me. I had to come up with something quick. I couldn't tell her my secret, I was still worried I'd get kicked out or something.

"Um - I- my sister is a lesbian," I mumbled. I wasn't sure if she would be okay with being outed like that.
Wait.
It didn't matter anymore.

Why did I have to think about this again? Why now, when I was actually trying to socialise with the few friends I had? Why did I have to be so unlucky?

"I mean, she was," I said in barely more than a whisper. Suddenly it felt like the air was made of metal.
"Do you need to go outside for a minute to get some fresh air?" Helen asked gently.
"Yeah, I'll be right back," I said, and stumbled out of the front door.

Fumbling in my pocket, I shakily grabbed my phone and called Othersam, on the verge of tears.
They picked up straight away.
"Sam, are you okay? Did someone hurt you at the party? I swear to God I will beat their ass if they did," he immediately started talking, sounding really angry.

"No, I'm okay, but could you pick me up? I got a little overwhelmed and I want to come home. I can take the bus if you don't want to drive though."

"Course I'll drive. Stay where you are and I'll be there in about twenty minutes, okay?"
"I thought it took half an hour."
"I'll run red lights," and the phone line went dead.

Thanks for being so patient, sorry it took so long :)
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