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𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫

【𝐆𝐢𝐲𝐮'𝐬 𝐏𝐨𝐯】

It's been 1 week since Kocho yelled at me. I don't know what to say but all I can tell that after she said that I felt like I lost Sabito and Tsutako nee-san again but this time it's hurt more than losing them, I felt so empty than losing someone I loved. It felt like I had lost my point of living. 

I heard that Rengoku and Tanjiro with his friends have fought Upper Moon 3 in Mugen train mission. Luckily, there were no casualties I still amazed that Rengoku managed to save all of people in the train and even hold Upper Moon 3 till the sun rose. Upper Moon 3 managed to escaped, Rengoku was heavily injured but he survived anyways.

I wanted to visit Tanjiro and Rengoku but I didn't want to face her again. She did pain me but after all I was wrong I shouldn't have mind her business. I don't know what she thought about me.

I had a mission in my hometown last 2 days. The demon was weak, I visited my nee-san grave. I told her my problems even though I didn't hear any responses but I felt her hand was caressing my back slowly and gentle.

I stayed at my hometown for couple days before returned to my estate. I trained more often and harder than last time, I tried to forget her and focused on fulfilled my duty instead. I knew that we will get day off soon but what is the point after I lost my point of living already?

Only Hashira got their days off, but the whole corps was still working. I can't spend my day off with Tanjiro and his friends. They were healing their wounds and training. It would be rude if I interrupted them. I think I will spend my days off with training and talking with Sabito and nee-san...

Today is Sunday, I bought some of sake (the drink) and some food. I wrote a letter to Tanjiro and his friends normally. Then I sent a letter to Urokodaki-san, to informed about myself that I did good nothing to worry, even though I lied to him I don't want him to concerned about me.

It almost evening now I haven't patrol near my estate for a long time. I will let my crow spotted the demons then I will managed them later.

The night falls I was patrolling like usual, there are bunch of weak demons but I still received a small shallow scratch. I headed back to my estate to clean up the wounds and bandaged it. I know I sucked at medical but I still remember how she managed it. I remember every her moves... I really missed her, even though she wasn't gone but I still missed her. I drank whole bottle of sake before heading outside my house and sat next to Tsutako nee-san and Sabito graves.

I knew that I was drunk, I began to see them. I knew that they are from my own imagination but I can talked to them like they were alive.

" Hey Sabito , Tsutako nee-san long time no see... " I didn't cried, I smiled at them before they sat beside me.

" Long time no see too, Giyu. " Peach haired boy responded back to me smiled at me while putting down his fox mask.

" Tell us your story what details we have missed? " A lady with dark long haired wore a red ribbon spoke up, she chuckled after.

" I will.. I also brought some Onigiris , Salmon Daikon and drinks. Let's enjoy this moment together... " I smiled at both of them before everything turned dark.. Looks like my drunk-self is talking with them.

【𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐛𝐮'𝐬 𝐏𝐨𝐯】

I planned meeting and apologize him after the meeting. But I was very busy.. I was mad at myself that I couldn't keep my promise to apologize him after the meeting. Now it is sunday and almost midnight, I hoped he still woke up I knew that he will. I saw his estate but in my surprised in front of his estate there are lights. So he still woke up and doing something, I wanna know what was he doing.