The quest to find the Doctor

trapped

I wake up.... the usually bustling and lively town of Burnley completely empty.. I find myself outside of the college "oh great.. of course I wake up outside this fucking place" I slowly get up and stretch, my back hurts a bit but whatever "alright what do I still have.." I feel around my coat and thankfully still have the sonic, psychic paper and my TARDIS key... as well as other bits and bobs like my phone and some little notes. I look around and try to refamiliarise myself with the town since I haven't been here in.. a long time. 

I keep looking around and wandering, walking to the park nearby since it's a place that lets me think straight, I stand on the bridge overlooking the reservoir and talk to myself "so.. I'm actually the doctor... just in this universe, oh what the fuck that complicates things... and yeah I'm swearing now, deal with it readers.." I say to myself as I keep thinking but then see a... person? Walking towards me slowly from the other end of the park.. I walk a little closer and see the veil "oh bloody fantastic, so you chase me and if you catch me I have to confess or you kill me is that it?" I say walking closer to it. It obviously doesn't respond and just keeps working and I feel my stomach rumble "ah, I'm hungry, see you then" I smile and walk off in the other direction, eventually finding the asda, strangely it's fully stocked and everything... it's as if the town is all normal and lived in but there's just no people or anything.. there are cars but I can't bloody drive

As I eat the veil slowly walks into the café I'm in and I just look at it as I polish off my crisps and sandwich "alright.. that was fairly quick I'll give you that.." it keeps walking toward me and though I don't verbally admit it, I do not see a way out of here... I then look around as I stand up "alright you want confessions?" I say as I breathe in deeply "I didn't run away from my high school because I was tired of it! I ran because I was scared, scared of the future and what everything would be like!" and thankfully as I say this, the creature stops, almost frozen in time in a way.. I let out a huge sigh of relief and walk out of asda. I breathe in again and say to myself "alright screw it, let's see what happens if I walk out of Burnley" and after what felt like ages of walking I arrive at the roundabout that meets with Padiham, I take one step towards the town and immediately get thrown back into Burnley, ending up outside the college again. "Great, so I'm seriously stuck here..." I get up and try to ignore my back that's hurting once again but instead of walking off I turn around and look at the college, feeling something from within it calling me inside... so I whip out the sonic, open the doors and go inside the college.

Immediately when I walk inside I'm flooded with memories of everything that happened here but try to ignore the thoughts "alright.. what are you hiding?" I rhetorically ask as I begin to explore the college and walk into my old corridor and see... an extra room at the end? That shouldn't be there... I walk down the corridor and the door has the number 12 on it, I then look around and every room has a number on it, I see 9 and 4 and a few others "this is different to how I remember it.." I say to myself as I turn back toward the door and slowly open it.

Upon opening the door I'm met with a familiar room, a black room with a huge crystal wall at the back of it "bantium... denser than diamond, did whoever made this place not realise how much of a skinny bugger I am?" I retort, knowing damn well I'll have to slowly try and break through it. I just sigh and walk back out of the room and close the door, sinking to the floor knowing what lies ahead "great.. so I'm gonna have to spend probably thousands of years here, maybe more, trying to break through that BLOODY WALL!" I shout into the emptiness of my surroundings... I slowly get up, admittedly not feeling great but I clearly have no choice.. I look round and see the veil once again, slowly coming down the corridor "goodness sake.." but this time I do not fancy giving another confession so instead I go into the door on the right of me and find my old classroom, but strangely with a mattress inside of it "what? it's almost as if.. someone knew what I'm about to do... but how?" before I can think more about the sudden mattress I see it coming closer towards me and quickly use a chair to smash open the window and then squeeze the mattress through, eventually making it land on the ground below me outside. The veil is inside the room now so I think, I shall tell it a story "you want confessions well I don't feel like giving you any more at the moment so how about a story instead? when I was little I remember watching doctor who like a fanatic, now it's my own reality and I remember the episode heaven sent, and I remember you.. you gave me nightmares for weeks so, who's been peeking at my nightmares?" I say to it as it keeps moving towards me "alright well I'd love to stay for a chat and a cuppa but.. I'll be off now, see ya" I smirk and muster up the courage to jump out the window, thankfully landing on the mattress without breaking anything...

I stand up and check for any pains or breakages, thankfully nothing. I then look back up at the window I jumped out of and see the veil, standing at it and looking right down at me so I stick my tongue out at it and walk off "better luck next time." Pretty soon I arrive at a hardware shop in the town centre and find a nice pickaxe "this should do" I smile and walk out of the shop with it, I see the veil coming up the street toward me but pay it little attention "sorry bestie but I got places to be" I then walk back to the college, admittedly my legs are absolutely shattered but this is my only way out, my only chance to escape and to be reunited with Liv and stop missy...

Soon enough I arrive back at the room and begin hitting it with the pickaxe, thankfully it's working but I can already see the pickaxe wearing down a little, I do as much as I absolutely can to the wall but eventually the pickaxe becomes obsolete, I throw it to the floor and pant as I look at my progress "not terrible I suppose" I say to myself as I sit down against the dented wall and breathe heavily, I then see the veil in the doorway "bollocks..." I just say to it, not having the energy or willpower to give it another confession... I just sit there and pray that I reset like the other doctor did in the show... I feel its hands go on my face and it burns like crazy... I scream out in pain but then, it's over.. I wake up.. outside of asda this time but asda isn't... where it should be, I slowly stand up trying to distract myself from the pain. "right, so I do reset but.. so does the layout of the entire town, gosh that's annoying... whatever" I walk outside of the car park and see the college off in the distance smack bang next to Aldi and Primark "right.. everything definitely does change around when I die and get reset.." 

I begrudgingly make my way through town, trying to find the hardware store again.. Eventually I manage to find it and my tasks begin all over again, I go back to the college, I hit at the wall as much as I can, I die again, everything gets reset again. It all keeps repeating itself and the years fly by like crazy until one day.. I decide to give the veil one more confession. 

I'm in the place I usually find myself these days, that mysterious room in my old college, trying to break through the bantium wall, I sense the veil coming down the corridor toward me and so I turn around to face it "hello again, I reckon you've earned another confession so how about this.. above all else, Liv is the one thing fuelling my motivation to get out of here! I wanna escape so that I know she'll be ok again!" and.. as I say this, the veil stops in its tracks, time itself freezing around it...

The cycle ramps up once again... so let's tell a little story "the brothers grim, I'm sure they're lovely, I'd love to meet them someday" I say as I feel the veil moving closer to me by the second "the shepherds boy.. a story from them if you hadn't gathered already, and so one day the emperor asks the shepherds boy "how many seconds, in eternity" the shepherds boy says.." I feel its hands on my face again, I wake up, I find the pickaxe, it all begins again..

"two millions years" I say to myself, marking down the years I've been here as I continue the story "there's this mountain of pure diamond, it takes an hour to climb it and an hour, to go around it!" and before I can continue, it all happens all over again all at once.. it kills me, I die, I wake up, I continue the journey, and the story.

"2 billion years" I say to mark down the years once again as I continue the story "and every hundred years, a little bird comes and sharpens its beak on the diamond mountain.." once again I die, I wake up, I continue the journey and the story...

"3 billion years" I continue working at the wall with the pickaxe and say "and when the entire mountain is chiselled away, the first second of eternity.. will have passed" once again I die. Wake up. Continue the journey and the story

"4 billion years" I keep going, never stopping, never faltering, never accepting my fate of being stuck here, always thinking of her, the real reason I haven't given up yet "you might think that's a hell of a long time"

It never ends, I die, I wake up, everything is reset, I continue to work and try to escape this damn place..  "4 and a half billion years" I keep working at the wall, the veil never stops coming for me, I'm numb to it all by now. One day, I let out a huge grunt and finally... the wall breaks away, a huge glow shines from the other side of it, I've finally escaped. I turn around to see the veil collapse into a pile of nothing but cloth and gears "personally, I think that's a hell of a bird.."

I finally step out, my freedom has been delivered to me, I'm back in the park, Liv waiting for me with Missy at her side, I feel a single tear roll down my cheek as I look at her again after so very long...

writers note: thank you all for sticking with me and reading my strange little series, I hope you all enjoy my version of the series 9 episode "heaven sent" because goodness knows it's my longest chapter I've written to date, I poured as much heart and soul into this part of it as I possibly fucking could, I hope you all like it.