leave me alone

fuck off

Tw:
self-harm
(slightly) bullying

You're in the hallway at school right now

“Fuck off Haneul…” Jungkook whispers aggressively. As the other two stare at you. “We told you to stay away from us at school, we have a reputation to hold and we don’t care if that means hurting you” Jimin says pushing you against a locker slightly pinning you down.

They leave you in the hallway, as they go back to their friends. No one knows you guys are related, and you wanna keep it that way too.

You only go to school with all of them since the uni and high school are connected.

You go into your English class hoping the day would get better, but the person you hate the most is in that class. Your English teacher. He has dark hair, dark eyes, fair skin with freckles. His name is John, he’s one of those teachers that get mad for everything. You were sure he hates you.

He makes eye contact with you “you’re late again miss?” He says. He has a sarcastic tone as his eyes roll

“Yeah i'm sorry” you said it sarcastically

He ignores you as the bell rings and he starts a new lesson. You’re sitting in your seat paying attention to the work. He makes eye contact with you every once in a while. You feel like he’s watching your every move

He finishes the lesson as the bell rings, he stands in front of the class looking everyone in the eye while talking “your essay assignments are due by tomorrow, if you have any questions let me know”. You can feel your chest start to ache, and your mind starting to get filled with anxiety

You talk to yourself “Yes yes...”You start to pack your things and you go out of the classroom

You leave class, going towards your locker. To your horror you find Jungkook sitting on a bench near your locker, he’s talking to his friends who look like they’re waiting for you. He stops talking right after he sees you. “What brings you here Haneul?” Jungkook says with a smirk.

‘‘I put my school stuff in my locker..’’
You said in the time You open your locker

You see Jungkook and his friends laughing at you “we know why you put your stuff in there. You do it everyday” he says as his friends continue laughing. This time you know Jungkook is trying to bait you into responding back, in front of his friends.

‘‘Then why did you ask such a stupid question?’’ you roll your eyes and turn around and go to the chemistry room

You walk away. You notice they’re still whispering and giggling at you as you walk to your chemistry class.

You arrive in your chemistry class and sit in your seat. Everyone else is seated and the teaching start explaining a new experiment. You focus on taking notes but you notice the boys in the back of the class whispering to each other and looking at you

You try to ignore them

You feel someone tap your shoulder and you turn to see Jungkook smiling at you. “Heyy Haneul. Looks like you can’t get your mind off me” he says in a teasing tone

‘‘Fuck off Jungkook..’’ you look at him pissed of

He laughs “oh, seems I hit a nerve” he smirked at you. The boys behind him whisper amongst themselves and laugh, one of them whispers something to Jungkook, who smirked at you again. He turns around and sits with them.

You try to follow class again

They continue whispering and giggling at you, making it very difficult for you to concentrate. The teacher is about finish the lesson as the bell rings and everyone starts packing up to leave for their next to class. Jungkook catches up to you as he’s leaving with his friends.

“Heyyy Haneul let’s not leave on a bad note” he said.

You throw a pen at Jk ‘‘shut up..I got better grades than you. You never do anything for class..so shut the fuck up.’’
You go out of the school building

The pen lands on his head as he’s shocked and annoyed. Everyone looks at you as he continues to smirk, “wow I see the Haneul I see at home likes to speak differently outside of house” he says in a disgusted voice. The boys behind him laugh at you. Your heart beating out of your chest and you feel hot as the anger inside you grows

You walk out of the school with tears building up in your eyes. You walk to the subway by your house and get on the train back home. You reach home to find out that your mother is out, and only your stepbrothers are here.

You open the door ‘‘Mum?..I have to tell you something’’

You see the three of them sitting on the couch as they look up at you. They all turn to look at you with disgust “what do you want” Jimin questions you in a rude tone. Your stepbrothers never speak to you unless it’s to criticize you and get mad at you

“That doesn't have to concern you at all.”
You go to your room

You walk to your room angry, as you close the door you hear your stepbrothers laughing. You sit down on your bed, feeling alone.

You think

“I hate my new life..I want my old one back...”

You see a scissors on your desk and come up with a stupid idea. That would disappoint your mum but you don't have much more to lose anyway

You take the scissors and hold it on your arm. Your hand starts shaking but you start hurting yourself

You hear your stepbrothers laugh and come up to your door. You look over to see Jimin opening your door. “What do you think you’re doing?” He says as he takes the scissors out of your hand as he sees the blood on your arm. He looks disgusted. “Mum!!” He yells.

You just stand in front of your desk shocked and with tears on your face

He looks at you in disgust “what did you think you were doing?” He screams at you as Taehyung and Jungkook come into the room. Your stepbrothers look at you in disgust. “Are you stupid!?” Jungkook yells. “This is why your dad left” Taehyung says.

You notice your arm starting to hurt again as they continue to scream at you.

You start to get a panicattack but you try to hide it

Your stepbrothers seem angry that you hurt yourself, not concerned for the fact that you just had a panic attack or hurt yourself. They don’t seem to actually care that you were in pain. “You’re so stupid” Jungkook says “you’re a disgrace to this family” Taehyung says. They’re all saying how much they hate you.

You touch your own wounds on your arms and cover them slightly with them. You didn't answer your stepbrothers

You feel the cuts hurting you as you scratch them. The blood slowly drips as you try to take away the emotional pain you’re feeling. You look at yourself in the mirror and question how you got in this mess. Why is your life so horrible. What did you do to deserve all of this. Your stepbrothers are constantly picking on you every day, even the teacher in your class seems to hate you. It makes you sick. You close the door so your stepbrothers don’t see you crying.

Okay...I just wanted to try something different. And write it in English. Somehow i feel it more when i write in english idk. I hope you liked it :)