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I am currently trying to basically get my basic medical needs met but my mother because she wants to make herself feel less bad literally tried to gaslight me into thinking my eyes were fine but anything especially small things are so blurred I don't notice they are there,I ran into one of my classmates by accident because I thought they were a doorway.Its been nearly 2 years but shes says 1 but my brothers broke my glasses at the end of my sophomore year(march) and I am now at the beginning of my senior year.I am trying to get meds to help me not just mentally but physically and she says I'm "lazy,immature,irresponsible" but everytime it has pertained to something of my health unless it has been so noticeable she can tell something is wrong,despite me getting sick so much and complaining about pains in my stomach which she ignored because " I just didn't want to go to school",well no darn walking a hour,in everytype of weather,because our county despite even a tornado warning where every other county shut down we were the only ones open,and had kids walking to school,and I was also have severe asthma struggles,on top of it all I was watching my 3 brothers who don't listen to me more because my mom has made me the bad guy to them despite she gets mad when I can't get them to listen,and she wants me to stay until my (12) year old brother is old enough to babysit,and ontop this she had me for a while not only taking care of my brothers but of my nana who had so many meds more than my brothers,luckily my nana has gotten better and can do things on her own again but I just to be treated for more than a convenient babysitter I love my mother but she needs to get things sorted out