❝ i don't wanna look at anything else now that i saw you ❞
❝ i don't wanna think of anything else now that i thought of you ❞
｡･:*˚:✧｡ 🌤️ 𝗜𝗡 𝗪𝗛𝗜𝗖𝗛 ━━━
•• 𝗮𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗮 𝗽𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 has always been a hopeless romantic. despite her cheating ex...
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I had a hard time adjusting to the fact that I had just had my first real argument with Conrad Fisher. I think this also occurred to my friends as they were lingering by my doorframe. I sat with my back to them.
"Lana babe, you're not okay." Taylor finally walked into the room after a few minutes of hovering. She sat on the opposite side of the bed.
"Do I have to kill him?" I felt her take a cushion and place it on her lap.
"No, he's just.. I don't even know who he is anymore" I lifted my legs onto the bed and lay down flat. I was despondent.
"I've never seen him like this before" Belly agreed with my frustration and also began to enter the room.
She took a seat at the end of the bed. "I have a Deb ball meeting in 30 minutes so let's make this rant quick"
"I'm not ranting Belly" I replied. I didn't have the energy in me anymore. Taylor took a piece of my hair and began to twirl it in between her fingers. I've always loved it when she plays with my hair. It makes me feel like a little kid again, like when we used to braid each other's hair during recess.
"That's a lie, you always have the energy to rant." She was annoyingly right.
"Be honest. Do you have a thing for Conrad Fisher?"
I laughed awkwardly. "No, definitely not.. he's just a really good friend, or at least he was." My friends sat silent, as an invitation for me to speak what was on my mind.
"When we'd spend time together, he'd always be so interested in what I had to say, or what I wanted to do. I always loved those days in the first week, when we'd just watch TV shows all day. I still remember that time we watched the first 4 seasons of Grey's Anatomy. It took us 2 days straight to get through them. Susannah was so mad at us that she put us on laundry duty for the rest of the Summer".
"So much for having nothing left in you to rant." Belly looked at her phone screen.
"Whatever," I replied and sat back up to face my friends.
"What did he say to you, Lan, outside by the pool?" Taylor's expression seemed worried as well as curious. I took a deep breath and tucked the hair from my face behind my ears.
"Well, he started by saying he was sorry about Jake.. but then I brought up the fact that he ruined my date with Cam and he told me to quit whining and that the whole fucking world doesn't revolve around me.. oh and he also said I can't live with the idea of being unloved "
"Lana.. none of that is true, you know that, right?" Belly asked and placed her hand on top of my knee.
Taylor added, "Conrad's just in this cranky teenage boy phase.. I'm sure he didn't mean any of it." She playfully pushed my arm.
"Now, I'm not letting you sulk around all day Lana Peters, let's go downstairs and I'll watch romance movies with you until my eyes and ears start to bleed" Taylor placed her hand on my shoulder and quickly jumped from the bed. I knew the pain I had in my chest for Conrad wouldn't go away. No amount of comfort movies could take away that sort of feeling.
