WOW titles are hard!!!!!!
anyway!!!!
i feel like i can never really be myself around any of my loved ones. this doesn't mean i don't trust them– i do, to an extent; i have mutuals on my private twitter account, my private instagram account, i have mutuals on many social media accounts of mine. yet, i feel as if i am a different person in each of these accounts, despite those accounts sharing a common name: ⬛.
i've opened up to my loved ones. i've done it on multiple occasions in the past. although recently, it seems i cannot do that. it sucks. i bottle it all up and weirdly, my bottle of emotions seem to be expandable. the last time i ever remember really crying was in may. may 5th, to be exact.
i cannot bring myself to be vulnerable with people who have known me for months, years, but i'm willing to post these very feelings of mine for (some of) the world to see. (it is bold for me to assume many people will tune in to these.)
i have the choice to leave these as drafts, of course. i guess one step out of my comfort zone is to bare my emotions in an account that is completely anonymous.
