What the fuck were you thinking?
Were you even thinking?
Please say something to make it all better
Please can you just make it go away
But I promise its okay
I promise that ill stay
It wasn't even that bad anyway
Promise me you'll stay
Cause I'm giving myself away.
Crying in the night,
and tired in the day.
I wanna die
And I wanna cry
And I wanna ask a million reasons why
Defending you to myself
And fucking up my health
Second guessing myself
Like was it really that bad?
I know you didn't mean it
if I try harder, I can be it
I'm starting to loose it
But I know that I can do it
I can be everything
You've ever dreamed
Then maybe I won't fall apart at the seams
I'll slowly stop eating and I'll shed the extra weight
Writing down the numbers marking them next to the date
I think its time to stop being everything I hate
I'm gonna get shit done and stop being late.
I'll finally fill a journal and I'll read all the books.
I'll get it all out writing hook after hook.
Maybe I'll go to therapy,
find a way that I can breathe.
Anything but obsess over thinking that you're mad at me.
Because What am I to do?
Without someone like you
To help me through
Bring back the colour when I'm blue
What am I to say?
When this is fucking up my brain?
Driving me insane
But I still love you the same
What am I to think?
When I'm standing on the brink?
Of another crisis
Falling from my eyelids
Turning my soul black
Gonna have a heart attack
But I need you so bad
