wish you could see me

one sided love

eddie was late for class, rushing to the classroom as he cursed under his breath. as he went into the room, breathing heavily and apologizing over and over. "mr munson! do you think it is just funny to interrupt my teaching? go sit down." the teacher scoffed, going back to teaching as eddie nodded.

 sitting down in his seat and sighing as he put down his stuff, see it wasnt a great time for eddie.. as everytime he went to homeroom.

 he was sat next to steve the hair harrington, which made eddie suffer. steve never really said anything to eddie, didnt really look at him. was always wrapped around nancys finger, tied to her side basically. whenever eddie tried to at least try to talk to steve, he was always with tommy, carol, and nancy. whenever eddie passed by, quiet laughs could be heard from carol. one time tommy went out of his way to trip eddie in the hall, causing the kid to get a bloody nose. see eddie could stick up for himself, but the kid is a skinny and scrawny type.

 "uh oh.. watch out nancy, see eddie here.. is a fag. so he might take your little boytoy away." tommy would say. "shut up tommy! thats not funny." nancy scoffed, she had never talked to eddie. was a bit scared of him sense hell, he was munsons kid. she didnt know what eddie could do, and she certainly didnt want to find out.

 "just watching out for you, sweets." tommy snorted, as carol nudged his arm with her elbow. eddie just ignored them, he walked away and to the bathroom. he'd smoke a cigarette before class, just to calm himself down when he was having a raging headache from needing to smoke. whenever eddie saw steve, he always felt his heart race. his body go hot, and his hands start to tremble. steve could be doing batshit nothing but breathing and eddie would go nuts, eddie just couldnt help himself.

 it was fall of 84, halloween was here. and eddie had seen nancy being all.. lovey with jonathan, he couldnt just stay quiet. but hearing that steve was going to a party? was a "great" time to tell him, in hopes to speak with him.. maybe have more happen- yeah no.. eddie knew nothing like that would happen. eddie always had a love for halloween, not so much of parties.. meaning he'd be around a shit ton of drunk people, eddie just decided to suck it up as he took the invite. back at the trailer, he was getting dressed.

 wearing a metallica shirt, and his leather jacket. he wore black ripped up jeans with a chain on the belt loops. he went to the party, trying to fix up his hair to look.. nice. 

as he went inside, it was fucking loud. as he just decided to go get a drink, passing by people and trying not to get trampled over by drunk people. as he got a cup of.. what seemed to be spiked punch? taking a sip of his drink as he sighed a bit, eyes searching the crowd of people to try and find steve.

 seeing his dorky hair as he chuckled quietly, making his way over to steve before bumping into billy.. which turned horribly for eddie. "watch where your going freak!" billy said, as eddie rolled his eyes. "oh? think your so tough huh munson?" billy furrowed his brows as he smirked, having tommy tied to his side as he had a little shit eating smirk on his face as he chuckled.

 "what the fuck is a fag like you doing here huh?" billy said, grabbing eddies jaw to make him look at him. eddie feeling himself freeze up, see he could just run but he didnt want to piss off more people and possibly get his ass beat. "i- just was bored.." eddie said, swallowing hard as he looked away. "look at me." billy said sternly. 

"i said, fucking look at me! are you deaf?!" billy shouted, as eddie just needed to get the fuck out of here as he looked at eddie. " i see you around and your dead, munson. you hear me? your fucking dead." billy spat in eddies face, as eddie nodded a bit.

  billy pushed eddie down, chuckling a bit as he walked away with tommy and his little goons. eddie groaned quietly, huffing out a shaky sigh as he got up. wiping billys spit off of his face and looking around for steve, seeing him as he looked pissed off. rushing to steve as he apologized to everyone he bumped into, soon getting up to steve as he bumped into eddie hard. causing him to stumble a bit as he groaned, looking at steve as he felt hurt.. cursing under his breath and sighing. 

fixing up his hair as he just decided to go home, it was useless to even follow steve to tell him something simple like "hey so i saw your girlfriend giving byers lovey eyes" plus steve looked pissed off already.. he wasnt gonna get in the way. walking home as he stared at the ground, kicking a rock along the ground before bumping into somone.

 falling down as he groaned, cursing out as he looked over at the person who he bumped into.. feeling his heart drop as he swallowed hard. "shit- im so sorry-" eddie apologized as he got up and helped steve up. "fuck- its.. its fine, mistakes happen.." steve rubbed the back of his head as he quietly groaned, fixing his hair as he sighed.

 looking at eddie and like.. scanning his face."holy shit? your- your eddie munson right?" steve said, as eddie felt his heart flutter at the fact that he called him eddie and not edward like everyone does. "uh.. yeah, why-?" eddie tried to play it cool as he fixed his hair. "i go to school with you.." steve softly smiled, that pretty smile.

 "cool man.."eddie smiled back, fidgeting with his fingers. he needed to tell steve now.. but how would he..? "speaking of.. i kinda gotta tell you something.." eddie spoke, his heart racing with anxiety. "yeah? whats up munson?.." steve looked at eddie, fixing his hair up as he smiled.

 "uhh.."