The 2 sides of love chapter 1 Avellana

Avellana

June 13
Woke up feeling tired this morning. We went through a lot last night. I learned that all her last relationships had really damaged her mentally and that her strict parents weren't really helping. She told me how she's always been treated like shit by other guys. We both decided to hop on a phone call and when I heard her voice for the first time since the party, I felt safe and comfortable. Like her voice was a way to get rid of all my negative energy from inside my body. It was a weird feeling to say the least. What made it funny was the fact that she told me she was calling me from her closest because she didn't want her parents to hear her on the phone. Made me laugh while on the phone. Never thought someone would call me in a closet sitting down while whispering.

We talked about our past relationships and how we grew up on different points of view of loving someone but we agreed that we both had gone through some things that were the same. We fell asleep at around 5 or 6 in the morning I don't remember. I didn't wanna leave her alone and neither did she want to leave me alone. So we kept each other company for the night. At the end of the call she told me something very special. "I feel very connected to you like I can trust you with anything even when we first talked at the party, I feel like I can always talk to you without feeling judged. I'm really happy you were able to find me because your such an amazing person". I didn't know what to say other then thank you but it was clear. She liked me and maybe so did I. I didn't really know because of how my mind was playing games on me. It was honestly such a goodnight for me. I was able to ignore all the pain from physical therapy and I went along my day.

June 15
I had to wake up pretty early today. It was a Wednesday morning pretty warm and beautiful skies. Before school has needed I signed a form to go on a field trip to a college that was going to take up most of my day. I got to school pretty late as most of my friend were already there. The bus finally came around and we were ready to go off to the college. I had told her the night before that I was going to be busy. We eventually got to the college after a 30 minute drive. The campus was really nice, staff seemed really friendly, the students seemed really happy at the campus. I was walking around when around the corner I bumped into a this huge panda statue. It kind of scared me at first but it was funny to me because the first thing I thought was how I was going to tell her I bumped into a statue of a panda. The afternoon grew into evening and as soon as I knew it, the trip was over. I was talking to one of my friends about her and how I had met her at a party and that I found her through someone's story. He seemed surprised on how I ended up in this place but seemed happy I was happy talking to a girl that also seemed interested.

When we got to school I said my goodbyes as I was pretty sure it was gonna be the last time I saw them this summer and I went home. When I got home it was 8 so I definitely to text her. "Hey sorry I just got back from my trip to the college it was pretty fun I got a funny story to tell you". She answered immediately with "So you went on your trip to go look at other girls huh?". I just stared at my phone kinda confused and surprised. I wasn't expecting an answer like that so I did what I was born to do. Rizz her up. "No I only looked the guys cause you weren't there" now that's what I call "W rizz" top 10 rizz lines of my life. "Oh you think you funny? You lucky I wasn't there I would've smacked every girl who looked at you" I couldn't believe my eyes I was being rizzed up. "It wasn't my fault you weren't there I was waiting to see you". The conversation went on and well funny enough we went on to talk more and we agreed to go on a date. It wasn't my idea it was hers. I couldn't say no so I said with pleasure. So end of the story I had a date as just friends (her words not mine) this Saturday with a girl who I was pretty confident that liked me and I did like her as well. Call this my rizz ark

June 16
Woke up with the biggest smile on my face. It was like having a house right in front of the sea with her, that would feel special. But where she was, was where that house was. Like going on a trip to Paris, with the mind of being happy. I think deep inside me I knew I wanted to be by her side more then anything at the moment. Before I even talked to her even before the party, it seemed as the rain always followed me wherever I went. It was never a blue sky over me. The clouds above my head anticipating every move I make. Like I could go to paradise and yet, this storm followed me there. That was till I met her.

I had physical therapy again today and for once I was looking forward to it. Why you may ask? Because this time I had a little someone who was motivating me. Yeah she texted me a small paragraph before my session and it was pretty cute and I told her I was gonna stay strong and promise not to cry during my session. After I finished my therapy I decided to hit the field to see how I felt. Of course I couldn't even do anything my knees were on life support after that session so I just went home to eat. I really didn't know what to do all day then just lay in bed and text the, once a mysterious person, girl who had me fighting a battle in my head about how I really felt.