The 2 sides of love chapter 1 Avellana

Avellana

August 18
I don't remember much other then being in disbelief and in complete denial. I refuse to believe what had just happened. I was on vacation, I was supposed to be happy. But I wasn't, it felt as if someone had stab my heart. And maybe I did too. It felt as if I broke your heart for no reason. Like a professional breaking feelings. I didn't have any other option other than to fill this void with temptation emptying bottles. My heart was aching looking for a cure for the pain that I had. My mind all over the place that night. I was in such a bad mood the day before that I might have let out all my anger out on her. But I don't understand or remember why we were auguring in the first place.

All I wanted was for you to reassure that you weren't gonna leave. Maybe I didn't tell you in the best way and yes I know the things I said hurt you bad but we both knew it was true. Sometimes the truth hurts. You didn't wanna stay and left. Blocked me on snap, iMessage, and Instagram. You wanted to go different ways and didn't want anything to do with my anymore. What broke me the worse was you didn't even try to fix it you just left me all alone like that. It felt like it was another time, another place where there was nothing left for me to do. She had my mind twisted like my head was spinning over my limit. I was watching the clock spin as I lost all feeling knowing we fought finished. We came way too far to end it so I went out looking for some peace praying but I never seemed to cause it was hard to find. She had hurt me more then any other person before. And then I realized...

June 6
Almost 3 months before
It was a bright sunny day on a Monday. Last week of school and I was sitting in class all bored because we had nothing to do and all the seniors had graduated already so the hallways were dead. We only had to go to school for 3 hours all week long so it was pretty pointless. I wasn't really looking forward to summer since I had checked up on my knee and was due to physical therapy, I wasn't looking forward to it.(I don't think anyone does) I didn't really care about anyone I was living my best life since freshman year. Had just made the biggest academic comeback ever and bought my gpa pretty high. I was sitting in class on my phone about to fall asleep when I came across someone's story on Snapchat.

I had to look twice because the person had posted someone who looked familiar to me like I had seen her somewhere before. Like she had been in my dreams once or twice before. Me being me and not caring at all I decided to add this mysterious person. When I got home from school I checked my phone and surprise surprise, this mysterious person had added me back. I didn't know what to think at first so I didn't think at all. I went along with my day going to the gym to try to out some weight on my knee, getting ready for physical therapy. That night I was on my phone and i decided, what do I lose from texting this mysterious person? So I texted her at around 2 in the morning. It seemed dumb but at least I knew she wasn't gonna answer right away.

June 8
It was now Wednesday. A whole day had gone by and no response. I sat in class trying not to think about but I did. Maybe because I didn't have anything better to do or just the feeling of knowing I had seen her somewhere before. It was crazy to think that this person was on my mind the whole day even when I was at the gym. Later that night I decided to check my phone, it was around 11 pm when I saw she was typing. I'm not going to lie, I felt like a little who's parents had just bought him the toy set he wanted. I had texted her a simple "hey" on Monday so I wasn't expect much other then just a hey. But surprise surprise I would be wrong. "Hey there how are you??" She had said after finishing typing. But me being stupid had opened the chat immediately and I felt weird so I just left her on opened for about an hour before I finally answered her.

"Hey I'm doing good thanks for asking how about you?" At that moment I felt so stupid. Why you may ask? Because she opened my message right away and begin typing while I had left her on opened for an hour because I didn't wanna seem weird for answering right away. "That's good I'm glad to hear that, I'm doing pretty good myself just a bit tired. And really? Could I see how you look?". Me being well me sent her a picture of a deformed donkey. No I'm just playing, I sent her a picture of me and well, she also recognized me from somewhere. As it turns out we had been at a party together a few months ago. Conveniently enough she was sitting at the table right in front of me at the party. I remembered her face from anywhere. I had found her cute and we had made some small talk at the party but nothing too serious to say the least. We continued to talk the rest of the night till she eventually passed out at around 4am. I went to sleep that night feeling good about myself that I had finally solved this mystery.