𝐀 𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠

Chapter 3 [Agape]

August 28th, 2023.

[Eden's POV]

You would think after being at this school for all of my high school years I would know where the library is, but here I am. Looking for the library for the past 8 minutes.

I've been looking at the signs and it's saying that the library is near. But somehow it is still nowhere to be found. I will find it one day.

"I'm so sorry I've been looking for this library for like 10 years." I say out of breath from all that got dang walking. "You good." Oak says with a small smile.

"Ok great, you have everything set up, we can get started then, it's really simple so it shouldn't take long." I say while taking a seat at the table.

"Alright so first do you have the Okta app on your phone already? Okta is what makes everything easy." I ask him. "Uhh I believe so, I'm not signed in though." He replies.

"Okay that's fine, we will sign you in real quick." I say

I sign him in, then show him what all the apps in Okta does.

*7 MINUTES LATER*

"And last but not least here is Blackboard, where all of our online homework will be held. It is pretty self-explanatory where the lessons are and stuff." I say while talking with my hands.

"Okay, thank you again Eden." He replies while closing out of the apps. "Of course, and question, are you new here?" I ask out of curiosity  "Yeah." He says dryly.

"Okay cool, well it was nice meeting you, and I'll see you in class." I

respond while putting my tote bag on. "See you." He says then starts heading for the door to the library. He wasn't that joyful.

I stay inside the library, because of how peaceful it sounds. The rain hits the roof of the school building. The only additional thing I hear is the air conditioner.

I was alone with my thoughts and the presence of God. I feel my stomach rumble. I mentally and physically know that I need to eat, but I just can't pull myself to do it.

I'm just not content with how my body looks. I haven't been since freshman year, I haven't worn tight clothing in I don't know how long, not in public at least. I know God doesn't make mistakes, but sometimes I feel as if that saying didn't apply to me.

I see all these gorgeous girls around me, in my friend group, at school, in my family, everywhere I turn I see someone with the body I desire to have. And I know envying others is a sin, but it's so hard, I just wish I was blessed with the body the people around me have.

So, how I have been handling this is by barely eating. I can't remember the last time I've eaten a full meal. At first, I started by only eating small portions of food, but now I can't pull myself to eat a full meal at all.

None of my family or friends know that I haven't been eating. I've been covering my body with baggy clothes so they wouldn't see how small I've gotten because they know dang well I haven't been in the gym.

As I am getting overwhelmed with my thoughts everything in my head goes silent... Then 1 Corinthians 6:19 starts ringing in my head.

I know that it is nobody but God that is saving me from my own harsh judgment, but I still try my best to zone out what God is trying to reveal to me.

Eventually, I come to a point where I can't silence God anymore, I don't even know why I tried. I open the bible app and type in the verse that God has been repeating to me and I am left in shock at how God just attacked me just now... 

"Don't you know that your body is a sanctuary of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own." 1 Corinthians 6:19...