~ Shipper's Pain ~ Book 2 ~

Chapter 24 ~ Forgiveness

Song Inspiration:

1 ~ Psychological War by Rory

2 ~ Hurt by Johnny Cash

3 ~ A Symptom of Being Human by Shinedown

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Synopsis:

Forgiveness can easily be said, but actions mean more than words.

Sometimes, it is a war within our own mind you finally won, and can move on from to the peace and love you finally deserve.

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Mew just stared at them while having a hangover headache, just stared and stared some more.

Tul gave some breakfast and medicine to Mew, just smiling at him. Tul was careful not to upset Mew, not letting Mew run for the hills like he almost did the night before.

Max was also careful not to scare Mew, carefully sitting next to him for the first time in many months.

Tul gave Max a plate, then sat across from them, quietly eating, enjoying the peace and comfort of being in one room without fighting.

After eating a bite and taking the medicine, he finally said they don't need to walk on eggshells around him because he won't run or explode.

That made both Tul and Max giggle a little and smile, both saying okay, fair enough, that they won't either.

They finished breakfast, and Mew decided to shower and lay back down from still recovering from everything the night before.
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Mew POV:

I am not sure what to do with myself right now. I should be mad. I should move on and leave. That is what people say. I deserve better, I know, but the pull I feel and my heart won't let me.

I am so in love with them but mad at the same time. I want to scream, then kiss and hug them all simultaneously.

It confuses my mind. I want to think logically, but my heart is so in love and wants to work it out.

What to do? What to do?

I tried breaking it off, which was so easy, but they weren't in front of me like this.

I am in the shower, not realizing they can hear me because I don't care to lock or close the door.

I start screaming what to do, what to do? Damnit, Mew, get it straight and think logically. Ahhh, my heart loves them so much.

I then heard a knock on the door. It was Tul asking if I was okay. They heard me screaming and wanted to check on me.

I said yes, I am just trying to figure my head out. It doesn't want to agree with my heart.

After saying this, I say shit. I wasn't supposed to tell you that, but it's always so easy to talk to you. I was always so weak for you.

Tul says he knows, which is why Max stayed in the living room, so we could have some private time since it sounded like I needed to vent.

I finally say, "Max was always so smart and sweet to know what each of us needed. I feel so bad to keep him separated like that. No wonder he packed up and left so easily. What are we doing? Like, really, is this guilt, or do we really love each other? It is because we love each other so deeply that when we face each other in person, we want to work it out?"