~ Shipper's Pain ~ Book 2 ~

Chapter 23 ~ Blowout Argument

~ Conversation in the middle of the parking lot ~

Mew:

Max. How long have you been standing there?

Max:

Long enough to hear the word Bright which means out of all the times to call and make up with him, you decided, oh, now is a fucking good time to call GULF of all people. Why Mew, why now? Why call Gulf?

Mew:

Yes, I called Gulf, of all people, because I have no one to talk to besides my mom and sister. Do you get it now?

Max:

No, I don't get it now. You could have called at least me to talk to me, but you blocked us. You shut us out.

I know it's all my fault and how my jealousy got in the way of Tul and you. You have no idea the guilt I feel for not wanting to burden you and leaving you knowing Tul was in New York.

I know I made some shitty choices, but I have realized since reading the letter you sent each of us for our birthday that I should have communicated my concerns more.

They were arguing when Tul came out, asking what was going on. Max tells him about the call, but Tul says, "Mew was only out here for no more than 10 minutes. What could he possibly talk about that's worth anything?"  Mew snaps.

Mew:

Not worth anything? Have you lost your mind or just never understood anything about me? After all these years, Tul, you still don't get it?

Let me be blunt for a moment with you two. Okay?

Right, so you two are spoiled. You always will have each other. With work or love. Will always be able to do things together. Neither of you ever has to worry about starting over because you have each other as backup. When your fans ask, you can easily and quickly do a video together to make them happy. Even after all these years, your fans always get their way.

I will not ever have that. I won't ever be able to work with my BL partner again. The fans ask all the time. It drives me crazy.

So what is so damn wrong with wanting to make amends and be nice to an old friend I used to work with?

Where does that leave me, too? Hated? Talked down upon?

I have been accused of so many horrible things.

Why? Because I fell in love with Tul first, then eventually Max too. Couldn't get along with Gulf as the fans wanted?

Did either of you jerks think of me being alone and unable to talk to either of you? I bet both of you didn't want to "burden" me. Right, like that fucking worked out.

Instead of not "burdening" me, you have broken my heart and thrown away our love affair like it was trash.

Why? Because of once-in-a-lifetime opportunities? Health problems I could have supported you through?

Right, because I am not good enough to be included, Burden? Right, like that worked out.

Fuck both of you.

Gulf tried to convince me to work things out and communicate better with you, too, but perhaps it's a waste of time.

Tul:

Okay, calm down, baby. I know we did wrong, and I am sure we all made mistakes. We all failed to communicate with each other. I am sorry for all the pain you have gone through and that we have caused.