What if I can't

⚠️MY STORY⚠️

You know people underestimate the power of words.
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me"
A whole load of fucking nonsense I've been hurt physically and mentally.
You know your brain blocks out trauma some of it anyway that's what mine did to me I think.
Words hurt more than people think. Sure hurting someone physically hurts to but you can recover from that maybe it'll leave scars meantal and physical but not always.
When I got hurt it left both.
The Hurt of those scars I got when I was 6 I think but maybe I was older. There still there on my foot faint but If you know they are there you can see them. But mentally thats what hurt most. The fact that he never said sorry. He didn't mean to hit me with it but he did it doesn't change the fact he threw it on purpose in my direction and he never said sorry. It's been years I remember him saying "I shouldn't have been standing there". I have the fucking right to stand in the kitchen near you without getting hurt and him not saying sorry I can't get over that it's stupid but it hurt.
Seeing something that hurts you is different people don't realise how much that can effect you.
Seeing my brother and sister fight it scared me I was scared that he was gonna hurt me and it wasn't normal siblings fights it was different. And what came with those fights shouting my dad shouting my mum drinking it want them fighting that hurt me that scared me  the most it was my parents.
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⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️PLEASE READD IMPORTANT!!!!!⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️

In this book I'm goona share what happened I'm not gonna use real names ages are gonna be the same but not really gonna get into thatI'm not gonna say places.
It isn't a terrible story and I know that not many people are gonna read this but for the people that do please don't leave hurtful comments, saying stuff about the TRUE stuff I write. Not all of its gonna be true I will add in some story aspects to this as I love writing and I will be sharing peons I've written on those pieces of writing say what you like i guess but nothing hurtful as they come from my feelings.
There's not really gonna be a age order thingy but I'll put the age of when it happened to me at the top. There are gonna be lots of trigger warnings and I'll put them at the beginning of ever chapter.
I would love it if you could tell me what you think of my writing as I'm trying to tell it in a story aspect and I will be using some of this in my other book.
Please don't copy any of this I is all true unless said otherwise and its my story not someone's elses to take and use.
I'm not gonna lie I'm struggling a lot with my mental health so updates won't be often but always remind me but also as most of it is true I will mainly wrote one of the chapters depending on the mood I'm in.
I know I'm taking a risk putting this out there and I'm gonna say this I'm only 13 soon to be 14 but a lot of stuffs happend to me and writing this is something I want to do and something I think will help me.
So I would appreciate it if you gave it a read and tell what what you think.
Most importantly never struggle I'm silence  I may only be young but I promise you I'm here if you want to talk I would never judge anyone so if you want to vent or just talk I'm here also feel free to ask me questions I can't promise I'll always give you an answer but I'll try my best.
Love you all
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