It was about 3 in the morning. I woke up to nobody by my side. I could have sworn my boyfriend was here when I went to sleep. I get out of bed and walk into the living room. There he was. Of course, he was playing GTA. Probably with his closest friend- Stokeley-. I sighed an walked over, plopping myself down on the couch next to him. Jahseh looked at me for a quick moment and then back at the screen. "Hey baby, you good" he asked seeming a little concerned as I was never up at this hour without reason. I nodded and hugged my knees to my chest. "You sure? I can get off the game if you want me to." He put his controller down and turned to face me. "Nah, you good Jah," I said tiredly. He sucked his teeth and picked his controller up. "You Stoke, I'mma dip bro, I'll talk to you later." He got up and grabbed my hand, dragging me into our shared room. He took his shirt off and laid in bed signaling for me to come lay with him. I smiled and laid next to him, resting my head on his chest.
We had been laying here talking for about an hour. Jah asked me if I was tired and I responded no, shaking my head. He grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers, as he began singing to me. I smiled and closed my eyes as he sang. I swear his voice was the most heavenly thing to ever exist to me. I was so in love with this man. I felt goosebumps form on my arms as Jahseh connected his lips, softly to my forehead. He smiled and whispered, "I'm always gon be here for you baby. I love you" And with that, I fell asleep.
~9:56 AM~
I woke up, wrapped in my blanket, alone in bed. Then it hit me. It was all just a dream. A tear slipped from my eye and down my cheek as I remembered, Jahseh has been gone for a few years now. I sat up and hugged my knees to my chest, trying my best not to cry. I couldn't tho. I sobbed uncontrollably, wishing deep down that he was there, next to me when I woke up but I knew I'd never see him again. My door was pushed open by my friend Ally. She had been staying with me since Jah passed. Even years later, no one wants me to be alone. Ally wrapped me in her arms and sighed. "I'm sorry, y/n. I know it hurts and I'm sorry." I sniffled and hugged her tightly. "I miss him so much. I just want Jah back.." I cried as she rubbed my back. "I know honey, I know. We all want him back. Just lay down and get some rest. You're gonna be okay. I'm gonna be in the living room when you wake up and we'll have some coffee and talk about everything, okay?" I nodded in response and laid back down. It's been so hard since he's been gone. I miss him every day. I closed my eyes and drifted back to sleep in what felt like no time.
And there I was again, wrapped in Jahseh's arms. Holding him tightly. And still, I couldn't bring myself to believe it was a dream. I smiled at him as he brought his lips to me. "You know I love you right?" He said, running one hand down my back. I nodded and grinned. "I know, and I love you too" I kissed him quickly and giggled. "One day, I'm gonna write a song about you. And the whole world is gonna know how great you are." I felt a tear fall down my cheek as he spoke. "I swear this feels like a dream," I said. But he didn't respond. I looked around and he was just gone. I hadn't realized but I had woken up. He was gone. Really gone. It was time for me to accept this. But nothing hurt more than letting go of him. I sighed and sat up. So this is it? I'm doomed, bound to his spirit through my dreams. My one and only true love was here to haunt my dreams and torture me. Till the day I was with him again.
LLJ (June 18, 2018)
~THE END~
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