From The Very First Day--/ Yeonjun/Txt FF

Chapter 3: confusion

Yeonjun finally reached out to me after almost 2 months. He's fine and doing well but busy. That's great to know .

The new soloist is shooting the mv the day after tomorrow. So I gotta finish all my rest and relaxation today. They said after the mv shooting they will have a comeback party too. That's good. I'm tired with everything. Going out and staying at home is also tiring. Idk what to do with myself honestly . Anyway I'm just gonna sleep.

---the MV shooting day---

"Everyone Attention!!!" Jenn shouted.

I looked at the door curiously.

"Our new soloist is here.. Please welcome , Choi Yeonjun!"

My . Jaw . Dropped.
When I say my jaw dropped. It did drop and I was having shivers. Its so shocking. Why did he lie to me? He didn't have to lie. God. This boy...
He entered and was looking so happy . His eyes were Searching for someone. Then we made eye contact and he gave that attractive mild smile to me again. Yeah... I'm dying .

"Btw Rein remember to do his makeup after 30 mins." Said Jenn

"Yea sure of course I never forget."

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I did his eye makeup and face base suddenly the manager said to finish makeup asap. He stood up and it was time to apply lipgloss. Fyi , we didn't talk the whole time.
I started applying the lipgloss to his lips and he was tall A.S.F. Damn . My hands were shaking while doing it . I never felt this type of tension before. The way he was looking at me only while this was ....truly ...idk the word...anyway...
"Sorry" he said.

"Why?"

"For lying. I just wanted to surprise you."

"Lol in this way?? Seriously I was concerned about you. I thought you're going to be on depression or whatsoever damn."

"Yea ok I said sorry alr? I AM sorry."

I dunno like I should be happy for him right now but it was making me kind of angry that he lied. But I'm happy. God, mixed emotions. I hate it.

"Nah it's alright. I understand. But you should've told me because I was worried you might be upset and all."

" But I'm an idol now and you are my make-up artist. I'm happy and ....lucky for the first time in life."

"Hmm...happy for you. And stop moving for a sec i'm almost done....." I said while applying the lipgloss.
"Now run you gotta go."

"Yep , got it."

I let out a calm sigh. I don't know how I'm feeling right now. I feel happy but... nervous? Why nervous? Do I like him? I don't even know him that well. How can I like him so quickly? Rein , control yourself. Don't fall for someone you don't know well.

it was the last scene to shoot for the mv. He changed into the outfit and came to me to fix his hair. The outfit was just a jacket ...no shirt..*sigh*...calm down it's alright, even tho I felt like im gonna faint lol. Ugh , im annoyed by myself. He's an idol now, i cant fall for him like that, especially when im his makeup artist.

" Are u done yet? I think i should run. Cause im excited. Just imagine how good it will be when i officially debut " he said

"uh yeah i'm kinda done ..just one strand and.....there u go. Done. And yes i bet it'll feel awesome when u see ur fans" I said.

" yes . Gtg."

we are at the dinner party. It's so crowded here. Everyone is here, it's not like i hate dinner parties like that. It's just i've been feeling really tired lately. Even eating with everyone is exhausting especially in a this type of crowded place.

" Tell us how u feel Rein after working in this new mv" said Emi. Emi is one of my colleagues.

"oh yeah i feel good and everyone was so nice and comfortable. Cheers to our new soloist." I said with a forced smile. I hope it didn't look that fake cause Yeonjun was looking at me. God , why i even care?

" Cheer to the debut yall !!!" said jenn.

I drank just a little bit of champagne. My mood was not that good idk why honestly. I heard this place had a rooftop so i went there to get some fresh air and hopefully this rooftop was almost empty and had just a few people. I looked the sky it was filled with stars. They were shining brightly. There's something about stars that makes me feel special. It's like they are looking at me only and im not scared of it. Cause ik they won't judge me like others. or do they? idk .Suddenly before i even know it i was thinking about Yeonjun. The first meet at the flower shop, the way he sang with me , the day we met again in the cafe, the way he looks at me , the way he auditioned just because i told him to, the way he smiles and chuckles and talks when I do his makeup. Damn he's an extrovert for sure. He can talk with people well. But dunno that much about his past life, or his childhood or anything, it just feels like we talk everything but also nthing. weird. But i was smiling when i was thinking about him. Cut to the reality Rein.I heard footsteps behind me and before i even know it i saw a hand grabbing the railing and someone was standing beside me. I immediately knew it was Yeonjun. I know his hands pretty well.

"why did u come here? Are u okay?" he asked.

" nah im just really exhausted."

" understandable. U worked hard, proud of you."

" thanks " i said with a smile. I wanted to smile more because no one ever really appreciate anything i did. No one ever said 'proud of you' to me. Not even my parents. They are probably still disappointed on me.

He chuckled a little. Suddenly i saw fireworks. It was so beautiful. like VERY beautiful. It was peaceful to just watch the fireworks and the sky with him.

" Rein I like you."He said.

"I'm sorry?"

"I...I like you..i think.."

i can't explain how fast my heart starting to beat. My head was spinning but yet it wasn't. I felt like i was gonna die.

Then he said , " From the very first day you know, when i met u at the flower shop. There was something about you. Your aura was attractive itself but when i started talking to u. I started to fall for u even more. You encouraged me to audition..cause no one ever did it. I'm so thankful..I'm making a debut just because of you.. I'm sorry if i made you angry or something. I'm always so nervous to talk you idk how did i even confess today. Im sorry if...u feel uncomfortable..it's alright."

" It's ok trust me. It's just that i dont know u well, its like i talk to u but still i dont know much about your life or past or whatever, But you're a very good person Yeonjun trust me. I think i just need some time to think...."

" It's alright...I think i'm just gonna go" He said with a smile. A forced smile. I understood it. It was a sad , forced smile. God is he hurt now? what do i do? Ok i asked for time and he agreed. It'll be fine. Chill Rein chill. and thinkkk.

The confusion of my own feelings is getting me good. I guess i hurt him...But can you believe it? CHOI YEONJUN LIKES ME.