Lost Smile//Connor Bedard

10.

Angelina's POV

I was awakened by the sound of beeping. I wasn't sure what the beeping was, but it was loud enough to wake me up from the slumber I was in. I slightly opened my eyes, but was blinded by the bright lights of the room is was currently in. Where was I? How did I get here? What is going on? All of these thoughts ran through my head causing me to slightly panic.

"Somebody is awake" A female voice chirped. I looked up and saw a nurse standing at my bedside with a clipboard in her hands.

"W-where am I? What's going on?" I asked, my voice raspy and throat dry. She handed me a glass of water and I thanked her before taking a big sip.

"You're in the hospital sweetie" she began, looking down at my chart, "You've attempted suicide, but a man called the ambulance just in time" my eyes widened at her statement. Who called the ambulance? Someone actually saved me?

"Oh sweetie" My dad runs in the room and engulfs me in the biggest. Im confused. I pat him on the back, not giving him a proper hug in anyway. He didn't reek of alcohol which surprised me. He wasn't angry or yelling.

Was I dreaming?

"D-Dad?" I say as I pulled back. His eyes were red and puffy and it had looked like he was crying for hours.

"I'll give you two some time to talk" The nurse smiles as she leaves the room. Making sure to close the door behind her.

"I thought I lost you baby girl" he smiles and pecks my cheek. Okay, now I feel like I am dreaming.

"Since when did you care?" I snapped, crossing my arms over my chest.

He sighs and looks down at his hands, "I have been a terrible father since your mom died and I will always be sorry for that. I yelled things I didn't mean, and I drank to help me forget that she was gone. But almost losing you, made me realize that you're all I have left of her. I can't lose you baby girl" He cried. His speech had me in tears. I didn't know my dad had felt that way. It was him who called the ambulance.

"We're gonna get through this. I'm gonna help you" He placed his hand over mine and gave my forehead a peck. I felt safe in my dad's arms. I know it's a weird thing to feel after everything he's done, but it was true.

"Oh Ang" A female voice yelled, my father and I turned and saw Ava running at full speed. She stopped at my bedside and embraced me in the biggest hug. I hugged her back almost immediately, feeling her tears wet the back of my hospital gown.

"I'm so glad you're okay. I thought I lost my best friend" She cried into my shoulder. I felt my eyes fill with tears as I hugged her back tightly. She pulls away a few moments later and motions her head for someone to come in. I look at her with a confused look before seeing Taylor Raddysh and the boy I had never wanted to see again. I felt my blood boil as I gripped my blanket tightly, angry at the fact that Connor would even show up.

"Well. I'll leave you all to it. Im gonna head to cafeteria" My dad excused himself awkwardly with a wave to Ava and a kiss to my forehead before walking off.

I assume he saw my facial expression and wanted nothing of the situation that was about to unfold.

I kept my eyes locked on Connor's. they were red and puffy as if he'd been crying nonstop and Taylor looked like he was sad as well.

"Get out. Now. Both of you, get out" I yelled. Both of them standing awkwardly near my bed, Ava just sighs.

I wasn't sure if it was anger taking over or sadness, but either way I didn't want to see Connor again. After the way he had played me and my emotions, seeing him is only making things worse. He had some nerve showing up here.

"Ang pl-" Connor began speaking but I cut him off with a hand to the face, making him stop talking immediately. He lets out a sigh as he places a bouquet of flowers on my nightstand table before heading towards the door. "You too, Taylor. Bye" Taylor frowned and followed Connor.

Ava gave me a sad smile as she stayed put on my bed. I pursed my lips and looked down at my blanket. Maybe I should have heard Connor out. Maybe I should've let him explain his actions. I felt bad for not hearing him out, but the pain he had caused me was too much. Seeing him made me want to burst out into tears, which I almost did. I looked over at the flowers and picked them up. They were roses.

My favourite flower. I couldn't believe Connor still knew.

"Why don't you read the small card?" Ava chirped, snapping me out of my thoughts. I nodded my head and picked it out of the bouquet.

To my Angelina,
I know what I did was unforgivable. I know what I did was disgusting. But I want you to know that I truly do love you and I will spend every minute of everyday showing you, even if you don't want me around. I know it will take time, but I hope you can slowly forgive me.

Love Connor.

I shed a tear at the letter, but crumpled it and through it to the ground. Ava looked at me with sad eyes. I knew I couldn't forgive Connor for what he had done to me. He hurt me in ways I didn't think were possible. And for what? Greed, selfishness? It broke my heart knowing that he would tell me those things for money. It showed me what I should've known all along.

I was worth nothing more than just money.