HIM AND I

chapter 3

present day.

I woke up to the sound of chirping birds,I turned to look at the window,but nothing was there..yup,I'm finally in the hallucinations stage...

The funeral took place a month ago but I was still held down,I said I was okay to the countless of calls I received over the time from family,but a part of me couldn't move on and they all knew it.
My enthusiasm for art always pulled me away from the world and when I entered the zone nothing else mattered,he taught me that,but it's been 2 months since he passed and I haven't held a brush,and it didn't seem like I was going to anytime soon.

I felt light weighted and I couldn't remember what happened the night before.
At least I don't have to go anywhere.
My plan was to stay in my room throughout the day,just like other days since the funeral, then only go outside for food,of course I can't survive without food.
Not until I got a call from Dr. sturgis,my therapist..it was the usuals,but this time I was asked to go outside or have a little fun today, I agreed with him easily,cause honestly I Knew it's all pulling me down and I'm trying to get out of the hole,but I just can't.
I didn't know where to go,or how to "have fun" at that moment or at least how to take my mind off it.

When I wasn't thinking about him and the changes that was happening around me ,I was thinking about the black car guy,and I kept feeling a strong connection

I've always trusted my instincts and I know I'm never wrong...most times,okay no, I'm wrong alott,but that's not the point here, if I believe in ghosts I would have said dad's ghost was literally pointing something out,but I don't believe in ghosts, I'd rather believe in real things like global warming.

I knew nothing about him except he was friends with my dad, because you can't just show up for a random guy's burial..I hope.
I didn't understand what I was doing,why I was so drawn into him,I couldn't answer my questions but one thing I could do was take my mind off the whole death thing.

I freshened up and made a call..
"Heyy"
"What's up,last night was lit I Know, hang over?"
It was finally coming back to me

Ava...last night..

Okay,so I had a couple of drinks,and my low alcohol tolerance must have knocked me out 'cause last thing I remember was being caught up in the moment and stretching out for another shot, I don't even know how I got to my bed. Turns out I did know how to have fun .
In less than 30 minutes I heard the door bell and rushed down to get the door.
"Good morning" she said with a beaming smile on her face
Her face looked like it was about to explode with excitement,I've been told alot of times that she's a bad influence,and they're not wrong,but I like her that way and nothing could change it, she's always been there and always encouraged me to live life without fear,the way she does. Obviously, she was proud of me 'cause of last night and that was why she showed up so happy like she just won a lottery.
" Good morning Ava" i replied then continued ,
"aren't you going to come in?".
"No no just a quick stop, I have to go now,I'm meeting up with the guy we met last night,noah".
"Noah?"
" You probably can't remember a thing,but he's really good looking and I think we have something"
" You say that every time you meet a guy" I said letting out a little chuckle.
"Whatever. I can ask him to bring a friend if you want to tag along,come on its going to be fun"
    A part of me wanted to stay in but the look in her eyes were so convincing i had to lie to my self I would only be going to keep an eye out for her.
  "Well..even if i wanted to go ,i have nothing to wear"
  Ava smiled and dragged my hands"ill fix that now hurry up"