Why is it so hard to care?
Why is caring so hard to hold?
I wonder why it is so painful.
My heart overthinking, it does not help my caring, sometimes I think why the hell do I care too much, when it's special, I don't wanna feel unwanted, left out.
I used to feel that way a lot in the past so now it starts again. What should I do? Stop caring? Stop liking you? I block my own feeling so I don't feel anything anymore, 'cause it hurts. It hurts and once it begins, there is no way back. It is myself against my heart, against every nerve and feeling, it is not fair. Why is it I care too much? And lot harder it's me uncapable of turning them off.
YOU ARE READING
I wanted to tell you, but I saved it to myself
PoetryThis is me, saving all the words I could ask, say, claim and cry for you. I decided to write it down just be drowned on it, so I wont run and tell you.
