nsb oneshots!!!!

past (sebryan)

the title may sound profound but trust me, this story might be a bit silly to some people.
(and no, i'm not british)

Sebastian tried to be as quiet as he could when walking through the front door at 4 am in the morning. He had been out all night, at the club. He wasn't drunk but he was shaking. Not because he was crying or anything, he was just kind of scared of Oliver's or Ryan's reaction. Both of them hated Sebastian's habit of going to the club so often. So, here he was, tip-toeing his way back into his room. He wasn't even close to the stairwell, when he was startled by someone clearing their throat. He gulped and turned around. There he was, standing, looking furious. "Ryan, look I can exp-" "No shut it. Me and Oliver are constantly reminding you to not be reckless about this one thing. One thing we forbid you to do. We wouldn't care if you were going to the club once a week. But you go almost every night. Do you think that's healthy for you to be drinking every fucking day?" Sebastian didn't say anything as he stood there in his guilt. When he didn't respond Ryan just rolled his eyes and walked away. "Go sleep now." Sebastian nodded and followed Ryan upstairs.

When Sebastian and Ryan were both settled in bed, Ryan turned away from Sebastian and turned off the lights. Sebastian was so used to cuddling up to Ryan when sleeping, that he couldn't fall asleep for an hour. He grew frustrated and tears started pooling in his eyes. He had a habit of crying when he was angry or frustrated, so he ended up crying. He tried to be quiet but Ryan still noticed anyway. He turned around and pulled Sebastian to him, gently stroking his hair. Within minutes, he had fallen asleep. Ryan smiled at Sebastian and kissed his forehead, before also going to sleep.

The next morning, Sebastian braced himself for Oliver's lecture. But it didn't come. He also waited for Ryan's lecture, but it also didn't come. Sebastian grew restless throughout the day and decided to just talk to Oliver. "Hey Oli." "Don't talk to me right now." "Are you being for real right now?" Oliver sighed and looked at Sebastian. "Yes, Sebastian. I'm being for real right now." "You know I can't help it. You are fully aware of my shit." "I know about your issues and I am fully aware of how much you go through on a daily basis. I'm aware of the fact you flinch when someone even slightly raises their voice at you. I'm aware you flinch at the slightest unexpected contact on your skin. I'm aware of the fact even the smallest bit of loud noise startles you. I'm aware that all this was caused by people who birthed you. I'm aware you have had a shittier childhood than me even though we grew up in the same house. I'm aware that the bullshit dad made you go through still hurts you to this day. But no, that doesn't mean you can use them as an excuse to party all night. You can't use that as an excuse to stay out all night. This is not lecturing, this is genuine brotherly concern." Sebastian didn't say anything for two minutes. "I'm not using those as an excuse. It's just..." Sebastian mumbles before practically running from Oliver's room.

Sebastian was out, again. He was coming back home late, again. But this time he was more on edge. One, because Ryan was visibly very pissed at him. And two he was scared of Ryan's reaction. But tonight he didn't go out to club, he went to Gela's. To rant to her about everything, to ask her how he can stop, because he doesn't want to disappoint the two people he loves more than himself. Gela's advice and words usually helps. But he was still scared that Ryan might not listen to his explanation and just lash out. But as he was making his way across the living room, he was met with Regie. He panicked and, "Reg, please please please don't tell Oliver or Ryan that I was out. I mean don't tell Ryan. I was out to Gela's. I promise. I just-I just I- Please, please don't just tell him please please. He'll get so angry. I just-please don't tell him. He's already so disappointed in me, I don't want him angrier. Please don't tell any of them. Please Reg. I just-I-I don't want him to be ang-" Before Sebastian could finish, Ryan came from nowhere and cut him off. "Seb...." Ryan's voice trailed off. Regie stood up and left, giving both of them the privacy they needed. "Ryan. Oh my god. I'm so sorry I stayed out again. I promise I wasn't at the club, I was just at Gela's. I promise. I just- I don't know-I- please hear me out before saying anything. Please don't get mad." Ryan just shook his head and walkes closer to Sebastian. Sebastian took a step back. Ryan sighed. "Look at me, please?" Sebastian looked at Ryan, on the verge of tears. "I'm not mad. But I do want to know why you're panicking this much." Sebastian didn't say anything. Ryan took another step forward and reached up to touch Sebastian's cheek. But Sebastian flinched away. Ryan's heart broke on seeing that. He pulled Sebastian to him. He could feel his tense body, slowly relax in his embrace. Sebastian clutched onto Ryan's shirt and cried. And then he told him everything. About how he was scared of letting people down, because his dad would often hit him when he did something wrong. He also hit him when he was just angry. He explained how this all affected him so much. Ryan listened. He felt his heart cracking with each sentence that passed Sebastian's lips. He had to suck in several deep breathes. When Sebastian was done, Ryan cupped his cheeks and kissed him. When he pulled away he looked Sebastian in the eye and said, "I love you so so much Sebby. You know I do. I promise I'll help you move past this. You didn't deserve any of that bullshit that man put you through. And I promise to help you get past that."

thank you for reading!
i have 0 clue on what i just wrote but i just felt like writing it so i did.
it may not be as good as some of my other stories but i'm trying. hope you like it!!

(★this story is not proofread so there might me some mistakes.)