Devilish Count (COMPLETE)

05

Ay hala.

Rinig na rinig ko ang dagundong ng bawat tibok ng puso ko. Even the oxygen in my lungs was robbed. I was staring at him as he stared back with a devious smirk on his natural red lips. Goddamn.

Wala na, aasa na naman. Mixed signal ah. Agad ko kinalma ang sarili at tumikhim pa bago nag-iwas ng tingin. Umaaktong hindi apektado sa pinagsasabi nang tukmol na 'to. Ba't ako maniniwala e, ito ang trip nito. Mang mislead, I will not believe him. Ang duga mang asar ah, personalan talaga?

“Ikaw, sus. I don't believe you.” Sabi ko ba bago tumawa ng pagak. Kung siya amusement ang nakukuha rito ako naman irritation. Naiirita na ako rito, it's confusing me. I can't even pinned point if he was telling the truth or joking. He was teasing me and I was falling for it. Kung gusto niya i-untog niya nalang ako para malaman niyang nagkaka-feelings na ako e.

“Whatever floats your boat.” He shrugged making me sighed. Oh diba? Anong sagot iyon? Walang affirmation. Puro lang ako assume, assume ng assume tangina. Baka pag-uwi ko sa Pilipinas ako na ang pinaka-assumera sa buong mundo.

“Maka-alis na nga, che.” Sabi ko at inirapan ito. Bahala sila mag usap-usap doon sa living room. Basta ako itutulog ko 'to. O di kaya ita-try ang mga binili kong damit noong nakaraang araw. Jenna and I went to mall and bought things. Si Claud naman nag bayad e. Kaya sinagad na namin, and to tell you Claud's riches is immaculate and goddamn unlimited.

Sighed. I have nothing to do. I was bored and I don’t want to bother Jenna and her obsess person of interest. Alam ko naman na sinosolo nang lalaking iyon ang pinsan ko. Edi sakaniya na! He even kidnapped her. Mabuti nalang ay alam na nila Tita, at tsaka swerte siya kasi hindi siya sinugod nila tita. He hurt their only daughter. Ewan ko lang kung tanggap pa ito kapag inaya niya ng kasal ang pinsan ko. Tamad akong tumayo at walang sariling napatingin sa salamin.

I’m so beautiful. Hindi naman sa narcissist ako pero wala talaga e. Kahit pa yata ako ang pinakamagandang dilag sa buong mundo ay hidni parin ako magkakajowa. Kakaself love ko hindi ko na magawang makipag relationship. Iba talaga e kapag sanay ka sa sarili mong mag-isa.

Naligo ako, kumain na, hindi makatulog...

In the end, I found my self gathering the paper bags that the clothes I bought. I grinned as I tried them on. It was the latest fashion collection. The moment my eyes landed on the last paper bag a smirk appeared on my lips. I know what it is. It’s the lingerie I bought. Kahit naman wala akong asawa ito ang mga gusto ko. Plus, it’s called preparing. Hindi ko alam kung kailan mapapalaban.

To be honest, I’m a woman who won’t settle for less. My standards were simple but not many men can filled it. Kaya minaigi ko nalang maging single. I do wish for a good relationship and love like no tomorrow. Siguro ay problema ko iyon, mapili ako.

They say it’s not being picky it’s about having preferences.

I have preferences.

I want I guy that follow me around like he can’t spend his time without me. I like a guy that smells good and loves my smell.

‘Di bale na kung ‘di gwapo o hindi humorous.

I like a guy that values tradition and family.

I like a guy that affirms me, say he wanted to say.

I like a guy that won’t walk out in argument instead would have rough sex in consoling my goddamn problem.

I’m not experienced in sex so...

Well, that’s just my preferences.

I just sighed and tried the lingerie I bought. I dare look my self in the mirror and even turned around and look over my shoulder getting a good look to my back. It was a short thin sexy dress like lingerie. It was too sinful to be called dress. Oh well, I wish someone would take it off from me--

The door pushed open.

“Hey little fern! Let’s go to my--” his eyes on me and my whole being. Shocked, mouth hanged as he dropped his phone.

“Holy fuck.”