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{Warning - talk of SA abuse drugs swearing violence knife blood }
Y-for y/n J- for johnb Y- butterfly I haven't heard you say that in a while
J- yeah I know I thought about something and remember then little name I would call you
Y- yeah you and Jj would always call me that I kinda forgot about it
J- can I ask you something
Y- anything
J- what was Jj talking about at the house
Y- um you sure you want to hear it
J- yes
Johnb pov- I can see her trying to blink away the tears I put my hand out for her to hold it she close her eyes letting out a shaking breath
Y/ remember when I came to here with you and dad and I stayed for 6 months
J- yeah that was the longest you stayed I think you were 13
Y- yeah well it was because mr Thornton was in rehab
J- oh
Y- he was violent and my mum had enough
J- I'm sorry
Y- there were nights he would come home drunk topper and mum would be out he would come to my room and hit me call me names
J- omg I'm so sorry why didn't you tell me or dad
Y- because I knew yous would never let him get away with it and I didn't want you or dad to get in trouble with the police
J- is that all
Y- no the scars on my thighs and belly there from him he would hold me down and tell me he would cut were I should lose weight he would do it until he was happy with his *art work * as he would call it I would lay there hoping I would die hoping that I would just die so I wouldn't have to go through it any more when he came back from rehab he didn't remember any of it but when Jj said something about him tonight the look on his face told me he knew exactly what he did he made me feel worthless that nobody would love me and it got me thinking would I be a good mum how can I protect these babies when I couldn't even protect my self
Still johnb pov
I wanted to tell her I wanted to go back to the Thorntons and rip his head off but when I looked over at my sister she was crying sobbing and I know she needed me to be there for her not to be yelling or telling her how much I wanted to kill him but she needed to hear
Johnb/ look at me you my precious sister our so beautiful and amazing you are loved very loved you are so caring so so loving and you are going to be a amazing mum god sake you held a gun to your cousin that hurt you because he hurt me you were scared to death of him but as soon as he hurt someone you loved it went all away I love you so much butterfly please don't ever think your worthless
