MINHO POV
I was going to my room crying I couldn't believe my eyes the person I'd loved for so many months did this to me but I also thought it was my fault why didn't I allow things to go further every time we kissed, every time he said I looked sexy, every time he told me I loved you why was i scared that I wasn't going to please him well, was I scared that he'd probably be disgusted by the way I look or how big my thighs were or how fat my body all I could ask myself where why there were so many times that life had given me a chance to give my Sungie what he wanted but no I didn't I was so selfish thinking about myself now they have chosen Hyunjin to be the person to give him what he needed thank you so much even I couldn't be the one atleast someone else did it and I'm very glad, I was smiling until I started hearing voices in my head
You selfish brat why are you so useless
Why can't you just have sex with Jisung are you afraid you'll faint while doing it
You're so fat eat less
No one likes you that's why you have no fans everyone likes everyone else in the group but you're just there
I didn't want to hear those voices they we're stressing my out I just wanted Jisung I needed him here I was hoping maybe he was going to come back and check up on me since know he knew I was a sickling and stuff like that could stress me out but he didn't come I was crying so hard but then I started feeling dizzy so I ran into my room toilet and locked the door so no one could come inside I sat on the floor waiting to finally faint but I wasn't and my head was starting to hurt really bad I just wanted to faint so I could rest for some time but I couldn't I was crying even more thinking about Jisung and the headache I was worried cause Jisung went outside and it was late, I stayed on the floor until I passed out.
JISUNG POV
I felt so terrible for doing that to Minho he deserved better than what I did I was trying so hard to not cry but his words just really get to me and make me question if I deserve to be with him even after I yelled at him, cheated on him he still could look me in the face and call me honey he deserves someone better than me, I was thinking until I saw Hyunjin come towards me
"Jisung we we're worried you need to be careful it's late" Hyunjin said worried
"I'm okay did Minho say anything to you" I asked
"Yeah he told me thank you for giving my Sungie what he needed that he'd probably wouldn't have been able to give you that" Hyunjin said
I started crying again and rushed to the house cause I wanted to see Minho and atleast apologize for my actions the right way. I got home and rushed upstairs while the members where looking at me, I entered Minho's room but I didn't so I tried entering his toilet but it was locked I knew for sure he was in here I kept calling his name but he wouldn't answer so I took the bobbin pin from my hair and unlocked the door it opened but the site infront on me was unbearable.
I saw a lifeless Minho on the floor but I also saw a paper beside him I took the paper and opened it hoping it wasn't the kind of note
Jisung if this is you just know I've been waiting for you since I was very worried since you went outside very late
If you see me like this don't be worried its just part of my sickness its nothing major
So just go to my cupboard and get my drug I forgot to take it before I fainted
Love you Sungie
I read the note and I was quite relieved it wasn't what I was thinking so I carried Minho to his bed and Gave him his medicine as I was about to leave the room someone held my wrist and I turned back saw Minho looking at me with pleading eyes but I couldn't make eye contact with him guilt just wouldn't allow me
MINHO POV
I woke up but I wasn't in the toilet I was on my bed, I was really scared that someone except Jisung knew about my sickness until I turned my head and saw Jisung about the leave the room I was quite relieved but I wanted Jisung to cuddle me so I graved his wrist preventing him from walking any further I looked at him with my eyes begging for him to stay but he looked at me for like 1 sec and looked down immediately I know he was still angry at himself for what happened but I didn't want him to be I was the one who deserved to be angry at myself not him.
"Pls can you cuddle me honey I don't think I'll be able to sleep alone this night" I said fake smiling
"Minho why can't you be angry at me?" Jisung asked still not looking at me
"Cause I love you so why would I be angry at you" I said
"But you're a human you have emotions you have every right to be angry at me" Jisung said now looking at me
"But I'm not, you did nothing wrong honey maybe from your side you think you did something wrong but to me you did nothing wrong you were just getting what you needed" I said looking at Jisung
"I didn't need it I was just angry and let my anger take control of me I'm sorry Minho" Jisung said crying
"Honey don't cry it's okay I forgive you it's not your fault okay so can you come cuddle me" I said smiling but the next thing he said made my smile fade completely
"As friends??" Jisung said
"What??" I said
"Minho look we can't continue our relationship I'm very sorry pls forgive me" Jisung said looking down
"Come cuddle me I want to sleep" I said about to cry
"Okay" Jisung said, he came towards me and laid down on my side I put my head on his neck taking in his scent knowing this may probably be the last time we cuddle like this in bed unknowingly I started sobbing in his chest
"I s...shouldn't h...have come to the closet" I murmured not wanting Jisung to hear me
"No you should have Minho cause I don't know how I was going to tell you all this" Jisung said
"No... i shouldn't have cause I won't have known and you wouldn't tell me so we'll still have been together right" I said crying
"No we wouldn't have Minho" Jisung said
"But...but why Jisung don't you love me you said forever not for some time don't you remember you're promise on the 14th of February" I said still crying
"I do Minho every single part of it but Minho nothing stays forever" Jisung said
"But we can... we can make that law wrong pls Jisung don't do this to me" I said still crying
"I don't know Minho we're not just friends but we're not dating" Jisung said
" So I'm not in the friends zone thank you Honey thank you for keeping your promise I love you so much goodnight sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bite" I said dozing off
JISUNG POV
Minho how do you still love me ???
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