What would happen if I crumble
Almost no one sees my struggle
If I collapse under the weight of it all
What will happen when I fall
Will I fade off into the darkness
It's overwhelming all this stress
But how will this affect those who stood by my side
Sometimes all it feels like I have is my pride
I don't want to hurt them
It all stems from within
At times I just want to cry
I don't know where to lie
If I fall in the water will I drown
What happened to all the sound
Under the water it's all muffled
Under my tears I struggle
I know that they'll care and I know that they'll cry
If I do what I'm thinking about doing tonight
But I don't know how much longer I can take this stress
When will it be my turn to rest
So here I wonder how long I can hold it all up
Holding the weight of it all is tough
And if I crumble before it all
I hope it doesn't hurt them when I fall
And I'm scared to let them know
And I'm scared to let them see
What if they see me differently
What if they forget who I want to be
I'm not my demons but my demons are mine
At night they like to come out to play
I can't always keep them inside
So I want to be remembered as I am in the day
I like being the sunshine in someone's life
But sometimes sunshine is hidden by the clouds and lost in the rain
I have darkness in my life just like anyone else
I get scrapes bruises and suffer through the pain
What if they stop seeing me as the goddess
Sometimes I just feel so powerless
Sometimes I need comfort
But I don't want that to be seen as weakness
All these thoughts I have
Is it all in my head
If I share will I be judged
Nonetheless I watch where I tread
Even if they help me hold up the weight of it all
In the end the burden is mine to bear
They can't struggle for me they can only ease the pain
In the end I'm the one struggling with despair
