Problems with nick and Charlie

School

-Charlie's pov
⚠️Tw: self h~rm

School . The best and worse place on earth. At the gate I can see homophobic, self absorbed Harry greene. It's hard not to look at him, but if I do I know he will- "charlieee" not today. I try to ignore him but his arm is already rapped
around my neck. "So how's life as a gay" I opened my mouth, about to reply when he suddenly is pulled of me . "Hey Harry, hows life as a dick?" Nick says. I can hear the anger in his voice.

We walk away together. "Sorry" I mumble
"Hey no s word" he says. We laugh. I can't believe he is my boyfriend. We walk to form together and sit down.

"You okay char?" He says. I love it when calls me char. Only he calls me it.
"I'm fine, I promise!" I reply. We sit quietly staring at each other for a good 30 seconds until he breaks the silence with "do u wanna come round mine later?" What a stupid question. "Of course I do".

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-At Nick's house( in his bedroom)
-nicks pov
"So what do u want to do?" I say "we could play Mario kart, walk the dog, watch a movie, sleep"-
"let's make out" he interrupts, grinning. So I grab him by the wrists when he suddenly winces . "Char I'm so sorry what's wrong. Did I hurt you?" I say confused.
"No no it's not you it was. It was me." Charlie says looking away.
"Oh char..." I realise what he's talking about"can I see your wrists"
His eyes are getting teary now. He is avoiding eye contact. "Char it's okay, just let me see"
"Fine" his quiet voice mumbles.

I gently roll the sleeve of his school shirt up...
It's bad. Really bad. I'm starting to shake. My legs are jelly and I'm losing my breathe.
"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." He says.
"It's not your fault" I remind him as I pull him towards me. We hug. A long very long. "I'm gonna use the loo" i say "I'll be back"

I hurry to the bathroom holding my tears. I slide the door shut and slouch to the floor. I cry. And cry and cry till I can't cry anymore. I love charlie and want him to be ok. I can't be okay when I know he's not.

I hear foot steps coming towards the door. "Nick" a muffled voice says "are you okay"
The door slides open. There stands Charlie. He has a sort of regretful and confusing look on his face. When he sees me crying he says "I need to go"

"Charlie" I call but it's too late he is gone.