Denying feelings has been too easy for me for way to long,
I controlled my mindset and became strong,
It's worked always, until you came along,
Now the methods I use to protect my heart seem so wrong,
I try to suppress my feelings and lock them away,
I leave you hoping that the thoughts of you do not stay,
If I stay away long enough maybe my feelings will start to fade day by day,
I go out looking for someone who could maybe commit,
But no one ever seems to be the right fit,
For they do everything that I don't like,
So I'll go back to the one that scares me most of all,
The one for whom I know I could fall,
But if he tried to give me his heart I'm not sure if I would take it,
Because in return I would give my heart and I'm terrified that he might break it,
I'll put the walls that he got through right back up,
Making sure my heart and mind he cannot touch ,
To fall in love I'm in no rush,
Knowing my feelings never meant much,
He'll find another pretty face to share the worlds happiest moments with,
The sound of his voice Is something I will miss,
But happiness for him is all I wish ,
Even if it's not my lips that he shall kiss,
