Heather Report What-If

Chapter 11

Astrid's POV

The sun's last ray shone bright as I slowly unblinded myself, opening my eyes to the now darkness. I began to get up just as I realized something constricting my head. The auburn bangs covering my eyes blocking my view. I moved slightly as Hiccup unconsciously whined and nuzzled my head back in place. I held onto his head as I slowly removed mine from his shoulder and gently placed his on a cushion. He adjusted himself mummering something inaudible and then continued his peaceful slumber.

His long and smooth bangs covered most of his face, a few finding their way into his tightly pressed lips. I brushed his hair off of his face, combing my fingers through his hair. "You're so gross" I said, sweetly smiling. I swear if someone had to distract me from my mission, they would just have to put Hiccup in front of me. No matter what how hard I try, I just can't seem to stay mad at him. I mentally slapped myself and got my angry mode up and going.

I tried moving away but his gentle hands still held onto mine, hugging it. I had to get out of there without him noticing, but him holding onto to me (quite obviously) didn't make it any simpler. Nevertheless, I quietly slipped my hand out and turned to leave. As soon as I took my first step, I felt someone holding my wrist. "Astrid please don't go; I can't lose you" Hiccup's voice whispered. I instantly spun back, looking straight into his eyes.

"Hiccup, please, please just stop. Stop pretending you care, stop pretending you like me as me. Cause I know you don't. How could you possible like me, a rude, weird, clingy girl. Who would like me? Nonetheless the great savior boy of Berk, the pride of Berk. I'm just the Hofferson girl to you. My clan is one of the most respected there is. That is how I got most of my friends. I thought it was different with you.

I thought you didn't just want to be my friend because I'm a warrior. You know what, everyone just uses me as a protection shield. I protect them all I can but once I rust, they just throw me away. I thought you would never do that to me, Hiccup, never did I think you would leave me so easily. Maybe that's not a very big deal for you, but I know what it feels like.

I've felt it so many times that I stopped trusting people. Even after all that, I did trust you Hiccup, but well, that turned out great. I may just be babbling over a very small thing, but this very small thing is good enough to break me inside out. You were my last hope, my last hope of someone that I love and the someone that loves me back." I spoke, as my chest screamed and my eyes begged me to shut them, but if I did, I wouldn't be able to hold these tears back. After saying all of that my throat ached and I felt overwhelmed.

"I'm going to get your book back, ung høvding. No matter what the cost." I said, looking back into his emerald eyes. Looking back at them, I noticed those beautiful emeralds had lost their shine, leaving a huge whirlpool of despair. I couldn't stay there anymore; I couldn't stand the silence. So, I ran. I ran as fast as I could. Leaving all this behind me. Leaving all the words I said behind, with him. I had a mission to complete and that was all I had to worry about for now.