my melody

Part 16: your jealous?

Today is the day of the concert. Scarlett is coming with me and so is raya and Taylor. Lizzie can't because she's away with Robbie but she said she wished me good luck. After the lie detector thing with Scarlett I had a talk with her about her first question. It worries me to think she may have thought I was using her.

"Scar are you okay?" I said while we was watching tv. She kept giving me little looks and then when I would look back at her she would look away at the tv and pretend she didn't look. "erm yeah why?" "I just- erm I don't know. I was just thinking about the first question you asked me before. I don't want you to ever think that I'm using you like at all because I really like you and I would never do that. You know that right." I said.

After that we sat in silence. I'm not sure what she was thinking or if she was mad. I hadn't done anything to upset her I don't think so just ignored it.

As we keep watching the tv I start to overthink everything like maybe she ignored me because she does think that. Maybe she's upset because she thinks that I don't actually like her. It's frustrating not getting an answer out of her but I don't have the heart to get mad because she might just be thinking about what she wants to say even if it has been 15 minutes.

"Scar can you answer me." I asked her but she just kept silent. "Scarlett?." I said getting a bit annoyed by the fact she is just completely ignoring me. She just closes her eyes and ignores me again.

I get up and go to the kitchen to get some wine. I didn't ask her if she wanted any I just brought the bottle and two glasses. I sat back down next to her and poured myself some leaving the bottle on the table for her.

I grabbed her face with my hands. "Scarlett. Why won't you answer me. You know that I would never do that don't you?" She just sighed into my hands. "I- uhh I don't know." She said grabbing my hands that where on her face onto her lap and squeezing them. "talk to me." I said calmly.

"ok i just- I feel like no one ever really loves me. They either cheat on me or leave me for someone else. I know that you may not but I just don't feel that reassurance when you tell me you won't because they did but still did it. I know you are nothing like them but- I stay because I love them."

I just pulled her into me. "Scarlett I feel so much for you. It's so close to love but im not ready for that I don't think you are either. I don't want you to ever think im lying. I will do anything for you to believe me." I said I repeatedly kissed her head. She nodded into me sniffling. I pull away from her and hold her face and wipe her tears that are running down her face constantly. "I- sorry I- I don't know why I'm crying." She said laughing embarrassed. "It's okay don't be sorry."

Anyway after that conversation we have been getting closer everyday. We went for a picnic in the park and then got chased by paparazzi. We went shopping and bought matching onesies I was big stitch and she was little stitch and I even posted it on Instagram.