my melody

Part 19: talking

Y/Ns POV

it's been a month since i had that deep talk about my past with Scarlett and she was so understanding but i sort of regret it now as i feel she is drifting her self from me. i know she may be busy but she has started coming home extra late and i'll get up early just to see her leave and she will have already gone. it's like she is avoiding me so i'm going to try and fix it.

my plan is to go and meet her while she is filming. i will bring her flowers and a little note with them. i know it's a same gesture but i hope it gets her to talk about her feelings. she's currently filming and it's 10am on a Saturday. i feel like she could probably ask for a day off or something to work on our relationship because she knows i've paused my music career to focus on her and my life.

i do understand she has obviously got to work as she is one of the best actress and i don't think she would know what to do with her self if she ever stopped doing what she loved. i am not asking that i just want some kind of reassurance that she isn't ignoring or avoiding me and she's just busy. well that's what i hope anyway.

i get out of bed and head downstairs. i play my playlist and start cooking pancakes. i think i also might stop at scar's favourite bakery because i know she loves chocolate pastries. i mean don't get me wrong it's not like we haven't been talking because we have it's just this week she's been more distant then usual. usually she will come home and i'll makes dinner for us and then she'll talk eat and fall asleep in my arms but recently she hasn't been doing that. she comes in takes her shoes off goes upstairs to get a shower. then come down stairs give me a quick kiss get something to drink and a snack and head upstairs and fall asleep.

i finish my pancakes add some fruit and syrup and sit down in the living room. i put on some tv and chill for awhile before i go out shopping for scar. i play greys anatomy and watch up to season 9 episode 3. i finish everything , wash my plate and head upstairs for a shower.

i take longer in the shower then normal because i'm relaxing. i know i don't need to be quick as she won't finish filming until around 8. i finish my shower and dry myself.

i dress myself in some beige cargos and a white jumper. i pop on some gold hoop earring and my bracelets. i get into the car with my bag phone and keys. i blast Taylor swift and scream my head off to endgame. i fucking love that song. after a 10 minute drive i arrive at the flower shop and see some gorgeous red and pink roses in the window. i quickly run in and find someone to ask about them.

"hi i'm here to buy some flowers for my girlfriend could you help me?" i ask a women that looks around 5 years younger than me. "omg hi yes. sorry erm what kind o-of flowers do you like." i smile at her reaction to who i am. "some kind of flowers that say i love you. i liked the roses in the window." "of course let me go and get some for you. would you like one single rose or a bouquet?" i look around at the roses. "erm a bouquet please."

i pick out some red white and pink roses and the girl ties them together with a white bow. "thank you so much they look beautiful." i say as i pay for them. "have a wonderful day." she says as she takes the money from me. "you to thank you again." "no worries." i go to my car and drive to the bakery and buy some pastries for her.

i quickly arrive at the set trying to get to her as quickly as possible. to be honest i am exited to see her. "hey do you know where Scarlett could be." i ask one of the people in charge. "yeah she should be in her trailer getting ready for her next scene." "okay thank you." i ran off to her trailer as i already know where it is.

i got to her door and started to creep in slowly not trying to distract her. i see her just sat down reading over her lines. "hi baby." i said slowly walking over to her with the flowers and treats. she looks up at me. "oh- hi oh my i've missed you." she said getting up. "what are these for?" "you." "why? what have i done?" she said smiling. "well i actually wanted to talk to you if you don't mind. just 10 minutes." "it's okay what's up." she said leading us to sit on her little couch. "well erm i just- uh i-"

"hazel what's up? your scaring me." "right sorry. okay. i just feel like i need to say this because i need reassurance that this is not what your doing. i feel like your pushing yourself away from me. i know that may not be the case and i know your busy but i want you to come home every night and cuddle with me instead of saying hi and camping up stairs every night." i take a breath and carry on. "i don't want to argue so please don't make this into a big thing i just need to know that your not ignoring me." i say still looking in my lap.

"hazel you do understand that i'm busy right? this is one of the biggest movies i've ever done i can't just stay home just because you what cuddles." "scarlett please understand that's not what i'm saying. i don't expect you to come running at my beckoning call every night and day and i don't expect you to give up what you love. i've stopped making music for a while as you know but i don't want you to do the same i just don't want to wake up feeling ignored every day." i sigh. i just drop my head into my hands and hold down the tears. she doesn't understand and i don't think ever will but i'm trying and i'm tired.

"hazel i'm not making this into a big thing. you said it yourself i can't be there for you all the time." she said. i still had my head in my hands. "well why do you come home every night and just leave me alone. you had time for me 3 weeks ago when you started filming but now you don't? how does that make any sense. tell me how because i don't understand."

"i do have time for you. do you think i want to come home every night and just go to sleep. no i don't i want to stay up all night with you doing other things and talking all night but i can't. i understand where your coming from but i'm just to tired. " i just shake my head. "no scarlett you don't understand you could at least acknowledge me when you get home or ask me how my day was or ask me if i want to come join you upstairs or something! anything! i just don't feel like your trying anymore." i said with a tear slipping down my face. she reaches up to whole it just i just push her hand away because i know if she does that i'll forget what we are talking about and just cry even harder.

"hazel-" "no it's okay i'll just go home." i say wiping my face. " no i'm sorry. i'm so sorry you feel like this and it my fault. i can't do anything about it beacuse i'm always working. i promise you i am trying. i'm trying to get this movie fished quickly so i can spend as much time as i want with you. im trying not to tried when i get home just to stay up with you but as soon as my head hits that pillow i fall asleep straight away. from now on i'll come home earlier so we can talk about our days and i am so happy you brought this up because that means our relationship is working. we can talk through things and figure it out. i am so sorry that you think i've been ignoring you. i promise with all my heart i'm not" she said grabbing my hands.

"okay okay." i said taking a breath. "let's go home." she said. "but i thought you had to film the director said-" i said rambling on. "i said id try didn't i?" she said smiling. i returned the smile and nodded. "okay then let's go." she said while tapping my knees. i quickly grabbed her neck and pulled her into a deep loving passionate full of emotion kiss. it felt like fireworks had just set off inside of me. i pulled back and lent my head on her forehead "i missed you." "i missed you to baby." she said giving me another peck.

we walked to my car and hopped in. the ride back home was comfortable. she rested her hand on my thigh. "oh just so you know my parents are coming next week on thursday for dinner with us." "oh erm okay." i said a little nervous. "it's okay baby don't be nervous." she said giggling a little bit.